tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-43580767021433588602024-03-19T00:46:32.655-07:00i love it....fafahttp://www.blogger.com/profile/12070181261899188172noreply@blogger.comBlogger30125tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-4358076702143358860.post-1794103712172697882011-02-19T04:49:00.000-08:002011-02-19T05:27:30.387-08:00I havent written in this blog for ages and the reason is because i felt no need to express my thoughts and ideas.i talk too much aredy so putting words into writing just seems like tedious work.but today I feel like I am stuck in this box of silence where talking about it to friends-even those closest to you is absolutely whiny and this topic I could not speak of without dropping a tear.I;m a drama queen and I do not want to tarnish my grandfather's eulogy by breaking down and crying infront of ppl.I want to be those people to think I'm one brave soldier putting on a strong solid front.no tears no snot.but I cant.I want to vent.I want to talk about my grandfather.I want people to listen or in this case to read about him.To honor him even in this small little way.My own way of remembering him.We humans forget and that's the best healing power for the heart.Something that god has geniusly thought of while creating us.Another proof of his unbounded power.But sometimes you just want to be reminded of things dear to you.<div><br /></div><div>While I continue this,let it be known that my hands are shaking and my heart is pounding.My friend is sleeping literally beside me and yet she has no idea as to what I'm going through.I sound so dramatic right now but a million emotions are going through my head.</div><div><br /></div><div>My grandfather passed away at the age of 90.Many will nod their head and say,old age. Atleast he had a chance to really live and to that I cannot deny.He lived through the Japanese invasion of Malaya,sweet sweet independence the 1970s hippie era and even the crazy 21st century.He must have had a million stories to tell but I could never understand him.His regional klate accent was too thick and I could never seem to bother.I do remember listening to him talk about the Japanese and how he needed to peel the coconuts for the Japs.How he hated certain people and certain ideas.He was certainly passionate.Passionate about what he believed and I know from my mom that if he said one thing,that was it.That's truth.In reflection,my mom and I are alike in that way.To think that it took death for me to figure it out.</div><div><br /></div><div>He was a great man my grandfather,Everyone would say that about their grandparents but truth is I dont have comparison.I never met and dont have the slightest recollection of my other grandparents so he was it.He was my extended relation.I never talk to him since we cant seem to understand each other.Literally.But every time he spoke to me and I nod and smile listening to him talk,I would always get one huge smile back.One huge toothless smile from him.And for that I hope I remember forever.</div><div><br /></div><div>with all honesty.I don't think of him all the time and I never know him well,other than my mom's stories of him and his discpline.How she would come home late and face such severe scoldings.How he would work hard with wife to feed their 6 children.How he would teach mengaji petang2 on the steps of his house and how much he loved his family.With all these memories I hope I carve him in my thoughts.</div><div><br /></div><div>My mixed bag of emotion.I;m sad because I lost a person integral to my life,to my family.I'm remorseful because Im here while everyone is saying goodbye one last time but I'm also elated because I know that he's gone to a better place.Where InsyaAllah he is young and getting ready to meet his maker.And for that,this post is my own personal goodbye.</div><div>Ya Allah,aku memohon kepadamu tuhan yang maha pemurah lagi maha adil.Ampunilah dosa atukku,kesalahannya walau sebesar kuman dan persenangkanlah perjalanannya.Terimalah taubat dan amalan2nya.Amin....</div><div><br /></div><div><br /></div>fafahttp://www.blogger.com/profile/12070181261899188172noreply@blogger.com1tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-4358076702143358860.post-18043403535211331282011-01-21T09:01:00.000-08:002011-01-21T09:08:07.738-08:00halo all<div>i am just putting random thoughts into this virtual page where no human being actually reads pon.</div><div><br /></div><div>In all honesty I know i'm boring but my egoistic self is very certain that someone might be bored enough to look through the internet and browse each boring blog thoroughly and accidentally excavate my piece of writing and find it worth a look.</div><div><br /></div><div>I'm not an interesting person and I'm not the best at conversation thus this really very dry entry into my blog but i suddenly feel a need to vent and I can totally trust this page of being safe from people who could ridicule me to oblivion so here I am still typing furiously into my laptop.</div><div><br /></div><div>and as soon as i wrote that down I realize i have nothing else to say.Maybe i'll continue this rant tomorrow</div><div><br /></div><div>right now i m going to listen to my endless supply of glee songs.</div><div><br /></div><div>they make me ecstatic..</div><div><br /></div><div>goodnite y'alL</div>fafahttp://www.blogger.com/profile/12070181261899188172noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-4358076702143358860.post-34357288448720535862010-08-17T21:39:00.000-07:002010-08-17T22:06:04.095-07:00<span style="color:#ff0000;"></span><br /><span style="color:#ff0000;">Tak sangka dalam mase sekelip mata bulan puasa dh dtg melawat kembali.Again I meet my favourite month of the year and to Ramadhan I say 'Ahlan Wasahlan'.I love Ramadhan for many different reason.</span><br /><span style="color:#ff0000;"></span><br /><span style="color:#ff0000;">I love it because it has the potential of being a month that provides me food.LOts and lots of food.</span><br /><span style="color:#ff0000;"></span><br /><span style="color:#ff0000;">I love it because it brings back the best memory I have.My best childhood moments were in Ramadhan.Terawikh ngan Kak ama.Bukak pose kat masjid ngan mummy and nad.</span><br /><span style="color:#ff0000;"></span><br /><span style="color:#ff0000;">Now that I'm all grown up(hahahhahaha) I love Ramadhan for two very different reason.</span><br /><span style="color:#ff0000;"></span><br /><span style="color:#ff0000;">I love Ramadhan because I now know what ukhwah means.What it means when you have sisterly bond thats not because of blood.Me n Nad,we never can get along quite well.Maybe its the age difference,maybe its just me being bekeng and she being really rebellious about the way i treat her mase kecik.BUt here in Auckland,MashaAllah the love I feel,I cannot even start to describe.</span><br /><span style="color:#ff0000;"></span><br /><span style="color:#ff0000;">I also love Ramadhan now because its a platform.Its a way to get me near to Allah.I mean,yes,start puking now.Farah dah seriously lost it.I can just imagine people saying this sentence when I tell them.Rolling their eyes.Gone.Gone.She;s gone all hypocritical on us.</span><br /><span style="color:#ff0000;"></span><br /><span style="color:#ff0000;">Well,so what.I've been fighting this whole hypocrite feeling I have in my head every single day .I I'm a hypocrite.Bile I dengan de 'akak's I feel that I wanna do good but when I ngan my other frens,I laugh,I jump I swear like a plumber and I feel goood.Well,this is where Ramadhan comes and play a role.This is the month where I know Allah's given me the 22nd chance at Iman.A chance at 'Taqwa'.</span><br /><span style="color:#ff0000;"></span><br /><span style="color:#ff0000;">Yesterday,dengar Kak nana bg tazkirah.die kate siape yg buat2 baik depan kawan2 yg buat bek and buat jahat bile they turn their back is munafik.I recoiled at that word.Ya Allah.Aku golongan tu ke?I'm the enemey in de selimut?Here let me tell u I was shaking.Shaking at the thought that maybe smue ibadah yg I buat,smue x diterime.HOw am I supposed to know that I didnt do it because I was being riak.Baca Quran,mathurat tu semua?Wud i Really be doing it kalau i duduk sorang on an Island tanpe orang.How honest are my payers and my recitations?How honest am I with Allah?</span><br /><span style="color:#ff0000;"></span><br /><span style="color:#ff0000;"></span><br /><span style="color:#ff0000;">I love Ramadhan because of one other reason.</span><br /><span style="color:#ff0000;"></span><br /><span style="color:#ff0000;"></span><br /><span style="color:#ff0000;">It reminds me that Allah sees everything.Everthing.He knows the deepest deepest darkest secret you have.Everything you are.So a very big reminder to self.Fight that feeling yg u nk buat bek bile u dgn orang bek jer.REmind urself that U xkan dihisab dlm groups when u dekat Padang Mahsyar.There's not gonna be a 5 orang beriman so one bad fren gets to go the heaven discount.So here I angkat tangan and berdoa that this 22nd chance I get in Ramadhan I use the best I can.</span><br /><span style="color:#ff0000;">Pray for me will yOU?</span><br /><span style="color:#ff0000;"></span><br /><span style="color:#ff0000;"></span><br /><span style="color:#ff0000;">Yours honestly,</span><br /><span style="color:#ff0000;"></span><br /><span style="color:#ff0000;">Farah humbled Hani.</span><br /><span style="color:#ff0000;"></span><br /><span style="color:#ff0000;"></span><br /><span style="color:#ff0000;">W</span><br /><br /><span style="color:#ff0000;"></span><br /><span style="color:#ff0000;"></span>fafahttp://www.blogger.com/profile/12070181261899188172noreply@blogger.com1tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-4358076702143358860.post-14399403354216471662010-01-08T10:02:00.000-08:002010-01-08T10:24:39.213-08:00bloggy landseriously.i like this blog.i like writing and i have loved writing and expressing feeling since i was a like a fetus or something.therefore it really is very sad that the only form of emotional chanel that i can put to use is this blog yet i fail to use it fullY.therefore new year resolution to write more in the blog.<br /><br /><br />happY new year to y'all btw.my year has been kick ass.not.its normal as usual.on good side,my cooking skills are more sharpened thanks to maid duty i do twice a day.however its still never going to be served for those without matching gens.gross thing happened todaY.nearly swallowed a fly that was in somebody's left milo.hell,it was kind of my fault but god was that horrible.i was like so close to chewing it and just letting it pass my trakea-god,even after all the brushing and the mouth rinse i use,and all the unsuccesful gag tries-i feel the fly still left like some gross dirty bacteria in my mouth that can only be cleaned if bleach is used.<br /><br />however,it may come as a surprise to many ppl(or it mite not) that i have tried far worse and grosser food staples in my life.lets review my top two grossest food ive eaten<br /><br />1.chicken head.yep.i did.one time,enjoying indonesian rendang and cudnt see which part of the chicken the meat came from since theyre basically covered in gravy so just went on to eat and eat the food till i felt something pop in my mouth and everything became a bit gelled.immediately spitted it out(who cares about manners then when u felt goo in ur mouth) and saw that it was an eye ball.a black eyeball which was now inflated with its liquid mixed with rice and gravy that i have chewed on.yeah.it put me of chicken rendang for like atleast a year.<br /><br />2.goat's testicles(balls)<br />this one is courtesy of my moM.apparently some folk lore said that to stop siblings from fighting(and owh,me n my sibs fought a lot-punches fly every 5 second),give them a serving of testicle and she tried it.the worst part was that she had to trick us into eating it.i mean no daughter or son in their right mind would volunterily eat that with consent.she cut the tescticles to look like squid pieces and told us all that it was some fancy deep sea squids that she bought especially for us.and we all,being squabblers of course fought over who got to eat more.now only do i understand the smirk my moM and dad had while watching us eat those boy goat parts.it didnt really make us love each other instantly,but it does scare us into being nicer to each other when in front of my mom since you never know when she decides that its time to try the recipe again and slip into our food with another delicacy claiM^^^<br /><br />yeah.thats it it.im queen gross<br />maybe i'll try a grasshopper next time which my dad swears is delicious and is as good as chicken meat which i very much doubt<br /><br />till next time<br />on the next mission to accidentally eat more vile foodfafahttp://www.blogger.com/profile/12070181261899188172noreply@blogger.com4tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-4358076702143358860.post-47181830515065031542009-10-21T00:08:00.000-07:002009-10-21T00:25:11.385-07:00spring oH spring<a href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEgfXEnCWqtsxENNuupVc6TOzWY_jj2NS2xWdh_Tl1edYKHYz0QQf1re4pj6BHS7R8liKMNVHx6lq0gEQdHYFgFxjDiTgKQxOzJDf1_owYuR3WZMAcUWrjeKhIG-2gTB-qyhIDxe3Xf_DY9w/s1600-h/DSC03700.JPG"><img style="TEXT-ALIGN: center; MARGIN: 0px auto 10px; WIDTH: 320px; DISPLAY: block; HEIGHT: 240px; CURSOR: hand" id="BLOGGER_PHOTO_ID_5394950919279030834" border="0" alt="" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEgfXEnCWqtsxENNuupVc6TOzWY_jj2NS2xWdh_Tl1edYKHYz0QQf1re4pj6BHS7R8liKMNVHx6lq0gEQdHYFgFxjDiTgKQxOzJDf1_owYuR3WZMAcUWrjeKhIG-2gTB-qyhIDxe3Xf_DY9w/s320/DSC03700.JPG" /></a><br /><div>Finally finished with all the assIgnments and all the test before the final doom exam daY!!!but i have atleast 2 weeks to think about that so lets tOHoK (throw) it jauh2 for now..a bit jittery cos i seriously think i now have a wicked bout of insomnia or I'd like it xleh tido nyaYa..huhu..yes,I cannot for the life of me sleep.dh brape lame i've passed of meagre closed eye time for sleep .hopefully with everything behind me>i can focus on getting some beauty sleep cos im lOOking like a witch with like Boring black drab clothes for most time.lets recap whats new this past few non blog writing moments eYH...well,balek malaysia time is coming to a near so im all excited.i really am a boring person.nothing ever happens to me...owh wait something did</div><br /><div></div><br /><div>yesterday,had this crazy cravings for jewel of india's butter chicken.for those who dont know.its our campus solution to kedai mamak tho its expensive as hell and I dont thnk the ppl there wud tolerate being called anei,LOL..aneways,i bought mua looovely butter chicken and was all xcited about it.even had the guts to mintak kuah lbih tu de server girl...owh thou beauty.May I have a little more porton of thoU delicious heaven made gravy and she did..ay maiden-i give You some..so jumping with joy i I did and headed towards this brick building i call home..i cud just imagine -food-youtube-aNtm-perfect match..i reached de gf and what did i see-the neighbour i have had for the past year who i really have nothing to say too so wanted to just rush into the lift without having to make like really awkward small talk and i did.but the lift was going to close.my cognitive thinking which is in Par with like the dumbest blonde in the world shouted silently in my head "tahan tahan lift" so i dgn pandai nye menghulur my beautiful butter chicken and the lift -the lift-the lift-crushed it.like penyet sebelah.and my hand was like inches away from the lift.my beautiful2 gravy was like mengalir turun and a few ktol nasi fell on the floor.yes-the unbearable humiliation I had to endure.hani swore to me that one guy actually terlopong tgK..after somebody was kind enuf to react tO the event-since i was not functioning at any point in that situation.got into the lift and quickly ran into my shame shelter.</div><br /><div></div><br /><div></div><br /><div>I just have this thing with me.I'm clumsy.and i know that ppl think i'm just like self fulfilling my prophecy and i really aM not clumsy but just be around me for a few weeks ,be around me for 24 hours and u will know that i put the clum in clumsy...whatever that is..hauahahahhaha...</div><br /><div></div><br /><div></div><br /><div>okeyh,will try to get a third attempt at sleep.wish me luck eyh...really really need it or mite just start breaking down crying for no reason.god,sleep is so important.</div><br /><div></div><br /><div>owh,and de start of de summer is so annoying..i being de very suke glap person hates the fact that there's like a lot more sunlight now.its like trang benderang at 6 and i despise light when I need sleep...hUHUHU</div><br /><div></div><br /><div>cranky clumsy</div><br /><div></div><br /><div>Fafa Hani</div>fafahttp://www.blogger.com/profile/12070181261899188172noreply@blogger.com3tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-4358076702143358860.post-86825558653444895332009-10-08T03:04:00.000-07:002009-10-08T03:12:06.326-07:00kemalasan melampaU^^i know that this topic is something that is such a cliche of a topic when it comes to studenst that as soon as anyone sees this topic,they'll say-whether outloud or in their head-elO,hang ingat hang sorang ke malas.aku pon malas tp xde la writing pasal it-hehe.well,i'm sorry but writing about it makes me feel guilty as to why im so freaking lazy and remind myself that i need to start kicking my own lazy butt and start working on the educ 113 assignmenta nd langteach101 essay but i have verY good reason for not working on it and putting all my frenzied caught up feeling in this blOg instead.I am stuck^^ as in in deep s**t and God only knows how I'm ever gonna finish these assignments.doubting my potential or even future abilities as a teacher if i cant even make out what langteach is all about.i mean its 101 for goodness sake.can it get any more basic.maybe i'll b one of those dysfunctional teachers yg cam teach from the text book.like literally teach from the text book.<br /><br />situation in class<br /><br />teacher fafa masuk class<br />"good morning ms farah"<br />duduk duduk-erm jap,ape ek dlm bahase inggeris-ha sit on your chair sit sit<br />thank you teacher<br />thank you too murid2<br />okey today we do some grame la ek.take text book and open page 3..yes yes<br />okey so can everybody do de whole page.when nk abes time u mark ur partners work<br />if any problem you ask your frens ek.i am teaching u self autonomy-penting budak2 blajar sendiri.arite-okey..very good<br /><br />then moves to teacher table<br />start taking out leaflets and ads<br />"eih,before u stat ur work ek.ade x anyone nk give anything to mummy diorng mader's day ni.come come.i got new catalogue.tupperware,avon.but no hutang2 ek.cash only"<br /><br />Huhuhu...very scary thought.oooo..oooo..makes me wanna go study .see,told you it helps to talk about u being malas..<br />LOl<br />till then<br /><br />ms lazy pants faFafafahttp://www.blogger.com/profile/12070181261899188172noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-4358076702143358860.post-7982303290039130242009-09-17T22:28:00.000-07:002009-09-17T22:39:50.791-07:00Three days till raye and the raye frenzy is kicking in full gear.the frenzy here does not and will never refer to the excitement of nk beraye kat perantauan but the utter despair and gut wrenching sickness in the pit of my stomach That i have everytime anything reminds me that i will not be with my family raye ni-skyped ngan umi xdi and bertambah lah lg ke frenzian kpale ku.saw umi and nad's batch of kueh raye-looked pretty good but made umi janji yg die xkan buat kueh arab until I balek-so basically it'll be kueh arab utk raye haJI..lOL..a hillarious rmedy to my yearning for home is kisah nad and her so called biskut raye aspirations-<br /><br />for those who do not know who nad is -she is my annoying yet tolerable sister-nadiah hani bnt hussein-used to call her nerd tp she was annoyed so I changed It to nad tho i cud have come with a btter nickname-nadiyot,yot ke.lol.aneways<br /><br />tahun ni sempena ketiadaan I kat umah tu and no one to boss her around she got the idea that it wud be fantastic to buat kueh raye sorang2-me n my mom can never trust her cookIng ways so she decided to buat chocalate chip cookies without my mom's hawk eyes.my mom bangun dr a nap and saw her working on the cookie dough gune resipi kawn bek die-sO she did-and everyone else was like wow-nad-ur actually not hopeless.or so they thought(my famly is so easy to believe in change especially when it comes to nadiah changing, I for one am not>>lol)<br /><br />aneways,bile balek trawekh,my sibs and parents pon dgn excited nye mengtry all de cookies dey made tengah haritu and when it came to nad's biscuit,bee was really tamak and took two.stuffed it in his mouth and spat it back"erm,kueh masen ke nI?"angah who didnt believe bee took a bite and spat it with more rigour and so did mY parents-lol,de red faced nad said"achik ltak 3 table spooon salt jer" and they started laughing at her-lol...dear gullible sister-u dont put three spoon of salt in a cookie batch-i guess she must have messed it uP with three pinch or sumthing>so now we have three balang of choc chip cookies that no one will touch-well done nad-wish I was there tho-its not quite sO fun laughing at her thru skYpe.loL.<br /><br />its all for now i guess,kna g siap nk bukak pose kat suriani since we ran out of ayam and beras-two main things for any malaysian meaL..hehe..till then.<br />and before i forget >>slamat ari raye maaaf zahir batIN to anyone and everyone reading<br /><br />toodles<br /><br />ms evILLL<br />farah fafa hanIfafahttp://www.blogger.com/profile/12070181261899188172noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-4358076702143358860.post-11077221412911834162009-09-12T01:26:00.000-07:002009-09-12T01:38:58.032-07:007 hari sebelum raye..what do ppl call the 7 days before raye?the hari likur likat or somethinG?for my sake lets call it the closing days of ramadhan>>>ramadhan this year has undeniably been beautifuL>>i mean de bond between every one in Auckland(HUia especiallY) is really evident and sometimes I really do bliV that ramadhan brings out the best in everyone-everyone-everyone.<br /><br />Raya feelings shud b here by now but feeling totally subdued-maybe its de lack of raya preperations here.de mid sem holiday is coming to an end and am really proud to say that I did nothing exciting or near exciting whatsoever in the past two weeks.all i did was dream and dream and dream .skali skale adela nigtmare-huahahhaa...<br /><br />Today bukak pose yg agak best and I think we have outdone ourself.like literally-its so menghairankan knape kalau x bulan pose,we make do with really lazy cooking but bile bulan pose ni,we cook like its the end of the world,or de end of food as we know it tomorrow.kalau mkn utk 4 orang,masak utk like 20 ppL-dets what u call tamak haloba(I think thats what u call it kan?)>>aneways,menu today was sup tUlang(panas and pedas-a very good combination),stir fried veges and telUr dadar.for those yg ckp,hekler,lauk tu jer nk kecoh-lauk aku time malas gle rtuh-well ,To u I say it is a kejayaan for us so shut up and let me do my victory dance aneways<br /><br />and we berempat(me,farah,mun and hanI) buat butter cake_ and the best part is,it was actually pretty good.de kueh's we've tried to do like butir nangka and bubur cha cha though not to say they were disasterous could just be classified as okeyla,boleh makan.but dis cake was beautiful.wanted to weep and cry and hug dis butter baby we made-terharu sgt.hahaha...<br /><br />owh,7 days lg nk raye-now plizzzzzzzzzzz,tell me what to do utk rase cam even a bit pon xcited nk raye cos im desperate here-just dont suggest lagu raye cos all it does is make me cry and crave for home all the more-huaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa<br /><br />and an early eid mubarak shoutout<br /><br />slamat ari raye aidilfitir-maaf zahir dan batiN-<br /><br />farah hani<br /><br />perantaun ladki=)fafahttp://www.blogger.com/profile/12070181261899188172noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-4358076702143358860.post-67504608851014417252009-08-15T23:41:00.000-07:002009-08-15T23:59:56.027-07:00pose nk dtg>>Well,ramadhan is only a few days away and I really have not made up my mind as to whether this is interesting or really the worst thing that has ever happened-All my life,dr kcik I wanted to b one of those ppl yg belajar kt luar negara and I m one of em so I shud have been jumping of joy when realized that when I wanted to experience other countries,I shud b aware that I wud also b enjoying the Ramadhan-Nz experience and also the Eidul Fitri-Nz experience and trust me I was not.Or if I were,i was really trying to put it at the back of My head coz de holy months without ur beloved ones r just not that special but YA ALLAH,just make me strong enuf to not break down everyday>>hehe..aneways,to all..i just wanted to wish you guys a Happy Eid Mubarak.Its definately interesting..<br /><br />Speaking of interesting,just read the news and was really shocked when I read the news that Srk was detained by the immigration at an American airport just because he has the name Khan which is black listed or suMthing.really feel hatred for America now.I mean this is Shahrukh Khan for goodness sake-he is obviously no terrorist bomber or if he was,he is really gud at hiding his actual hardcore love for mati shahid since he's like a liberal Islam(sgt bahaye but that makes him like not even a threat)-kalau Srk who is like a freaking big star gets held up at the airport and had to go thru really rigorous questioning than imagine how its like for normal ppl who just incidentally have surnames like Hussein and etc.Come on ppl.Just cos a few ppL think its fun to blow themself up,it aint transalating to everyone doing it.I mean,Americans have a really high rate for divorce but I dont see them not allowing anyone to get married since they'll just get divorced aneways.U get what i mean?IT;s a cross cultural world and generalization has got to stop.Try to understand them individually and not label ppl..I guess that's good advice for me as well.<br /><br />That's liek all I have to say<br /><br />Later<br />Pissed King Khan Fanfafahttp://www.blogger.com/profile/12070181261899188172noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-4358076702143358860.post-50945216400806743482009-08-14T03:50:00.000-07:002009-08-14T04:15:07.545-07:00H1N1<div> Been reading the Malaysian papers lately and the H1N1 case is rampage.I mean 56 people is a lot.I mean even one is a lot.I'm just praying my hardest to god that people I love is safe and sound.What makes this suckier is the fact that I'm thousands of miles away from my loved ones.It's funny that when the influenza was widespread here,I didnt worry about it-no sweat-sure,I knew about it but big deal?but when its near ur luved ones,its like ur heart start to beat faster and u start to feel seram sejuk about the fact that ur like so far far away from em.</div>
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<br /><div>Moving on to sumthing a little light hearted,I have managed to masak my first ever batch of cekodok ikan bilis.Sure,its not the best and sure one quarter of it was a bit overdone but atleast it was own effort.THough thinking about it feels really lame since am a twenty one year old woman(yeke?) and still have not grasped basic food preparation.all de Est classes to waste..hihihihi..</div>
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<br /><div>Talking about families and food have managed to bring me to a new level of depression.tahap dewa nye.homesickness is kicking in full force.my mind is nowhere here.its somewhere floating around.maybe it;ll come back once I;m on de plane to Malaysia.Am just trying to take it slow for now.Trying hard to enjoy things in life but really not being able to.Anyone know any cure or remedies for a serious bout of homesickness.</div>
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<br /><div>I so miss home that I was weeping like crazy when I heard lagu2 raye(yes2 i am lame since ive downloaded them already for raye yg berzaman lg) yg talking about sedare cos basically no sedare here.But on good side,have managed to label everyone in my class with sedare status. I think hani is like my aunt and bee is liek my sister-many positions are still available.U just need to fill in forms like y u think I'd make a rocking sedare-Hint^anything to do with me being compatible with any bollywood star is like so totally digalakkan-</div>
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<br /><div>P/s:i am so hormonally and emotionally unstable that when I watched Marley and Me yesterday,i sobbed and cried and blubbed in to the tissue when Marley died and didnt stop crying for like 30 minutes.for dos who didnt watch it,its a movie about a dog-yep,dog and I cried a river-I'm that pathetic.Owh,just read own word,seem to be doing a lot of crying-Miss Fafa cry alot-nice ring to it huh?</div>
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<br /><div> </div>fafahttp://www.blogger.com/profile/12070181261899188172noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-4358076702143358860.post-82753779385277811912009-07-09T05:40:00.000-07:002009-07-09T06:03:17.912-07:00realized that me and bridget jones has like very very similar traits and one of the most obvious-- is that both always either falls on ass very unflatteringly or say something utmostly stupid and denounce own intelligence by lyke 100 points....also embarassing things always happen at all times.have to be very careful always and wish could find body armour that would not be so bulky as to add 5 kg to already very bulky body.latest embarassing adventure,got on flight to auckland a day to early.was very comfortably seated and had fasten seat belt.was very sure that self was being brave and stoic at times where phobia of heights was really kicking in...tried very much to look very poised and calm-than a somewhat cross looking man commented that self was seating in his seat,very angry at man for disturbing time of piece.strongly said no in correct seat(somewhat in a snobbish way) and quickly reached out for boarding pass to show that self was respectable and could perfectly be able to read boarding pass ticket.showed it to cross man and now newly joined hot stewart.cross guy pointed out taht boarding pass was for tomorrow.realized mistake..shot up and grabbed handbag-wanted to jump of the flights but window to small.managed to mumble a im sorry.had to go against ppl trying to board a plane.got sympathetic glances from other passanger like self is really stupid foreigner who cant understand simple english instructions.maybe is true.hot stewart tried to help-screamed loudly wrong flight like three times to make way for self but than backfired and made self target of more stares and looks.managed to get off teh flight without looking like a total bafoon but has learnt to bloody well check date of flight and not just board any plane.plan to be poised and stoic again failed but good side,managed to get on right plane next day but paranoid so did not put on seat belt till they said all doors were closed.just in case same case scenario happens again thot would just jump off and start running for exit.but glad that self gone through that.so if happens again,then could just say,oops i did it again.maybe could wear red catsuit like b.spears while still hot and not post natal slut period-fafahttp://www.blogger.com/profile/12070181261899188172noreply@blogger.com1tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-4358076702143358860.post-44178883412931449422009-05-19T02:56:00.000-07:002009-05-19T03:30:35.608-07:00i haTE it!!!!i dont like to complain(det is such a lie tho..i'm an excellent whiner in a life outside dis blogpost) but dis is getting out of hand! I officially will try in any way possible to avoid my surau uni during peak hours(kononnye ambigous la ni x ltak name suraU).My azam baru adelah krane beberape sbab<br /><br />1.bnyk sgt orng duk melepak<br />2bnyk sgt orng duk melepak<br />3bnykkkkkkkkkkkkkk sgt orang duk melepak<br /><br />Do you see how much I hate these ppl loitering in de surau..PPl,like this is no gossiping..this is an advice.it might be harsh but this is a from a sincerely bitter annoyed surau user.<br /><br />I know to some,our respective halls of residence are quite far away but the surau is not the only option utk buat whatever u want.Examples are makan,berborak,study,makan dan berborak lg.<br />As i think everyone's aware of(like if ur not!find an optimetrist like noW!),de surau is quite small in size.It only barely fits like 10 ppl comfortably utk sembahyang.Therefore pliz keep de surau for religious purposes.Yes2,i am well aware of de fact that spatutnye masjid/surau tu blh dijadikan tmpt utk perniagaan dan perbincangan and stuff but Come on!! that i think is referring to like a huge masjid where there is like plenty of stuff for the mentioned activities.BUt do not lepak in the surau at one in the afternoon(peaktime) with another 8 friends eating and laughing and talking(loudly may i add) and eating again.It really does disrupt people and above all very annoying.To those yg menjdkan surau sbg spot utk study(i applaud u for being so serious and focused on your study) but guess what?all of those using the surau(well,majority) are students.we do have to actually study and we do have tests and assignments(reallY)!!yet we manage to find study spaces that is nOt de surau.believe it or not,there is this place called the library and there's actual chairs and tables for u to study in.and the best part is that u wont be able to annoy me thre.try iT!<br /><br />For those yg ingat surau perfect location utk landing tido..erm,its not.we do not wanna come into the surau and witness how drool is made.Let's keep taht for bio class.On a serious note,Please try and be a bit empathatic to others punye need.I mean if sorang okey lagi but if a herd dtg tido kat surau!!!!I might just step on you.GOD HELP ME!!!<br /><br />And another annnnnnnnnnnnnoying habit of those using the surau is makan kat surau.che kak.surau tu is not a suitable place for food.In case u dont know,we're there to pray!and it really menggangu konsentrasi when trying to pray .Suddenly, in ur first rakaat u get a whiff of de sushi de person beside you is eating.Automatically you start thinking.eih,sodapnyo!Tang mane plak minah ni dpt sushi-like what kind of sushi-ade wasabi x?oooooooooo sdapnye.and u end up sniffing the air eagerly for any trace of wasabi (dis is a true storY).THis is highly annoying.Again,i plead!sisters,do have a bit of compassion for others.I would not halang kalau de surau isnt overcrowded and there is space for these kind of actitivities but there just isnt.Is it not enuf that we;re already bumping around and lining up to be abl to pray(not that i'm complaining) but pliz,dont take away the prayers time as a way to take a break from the world because with these ppl around,u're brought to a realization of how much you hate the world.<br /><br />FOr those yg dtg melepak jer and wait for classes,terima kasih sgt2 kerana contributing to the kesempitan and uncomfortableness arising due to congestion.YOu are just the best!!!<br /><br />I have to honestly and sincerely apologize for whatever remarks that might have hurt or sting but these things need to be said And yes i dont have to be so harsh but I am annoyed beyond any level of trying to keep it nice.Let's just keep the surau for religious affairs.For now.<br /><br />Sincerely<br /><br />Annoyed and Angry Farah Hanifafahttp://www.blogger.com/profile/12070181261899188172noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-4358076702143358860.post-59131569745383953082009-05-15T06:21:00.000-07:002009-05-15T07:02:48.273-07:00nude mucH!it has been forever since I even remembered that I had a bLOg..HoHo..i was just too caught up in all de rain and gloom that is New Zealand.I gave the weather away havent I?yes,its been wet and rainy and squelchy and well more rain these past few days and I'm still not sure whether I like it or whether I hate it.so I'll say I'm in between.Okey,my real reason is not around weather.thats just like apppetizers..tonight was my first ever full frontal nudity experience.yes,i repeat myself.full frontal nudity(that;s y Im so xcited to actually write a bloG)..hehe.went to a comedy show that was supposedly featuring 4 of Nz's best comedian.Alas,if they were the best.Nz has a really very slight problem.FIND NEW COMEDIANS!okey...that was harsh but I paid 22 dollars for a night of fun...but it was a one hour show(like yeah!)and only like one third of the scenes were funnY.yes,ppl might say.u;re asian.u dont get our jokes..er,reality check.it was no where near funny and regardless of geography location,i know funnY!!the topic was all about John key and john key and the weather(how exciting eH?)<br />.exampLE:<br /><br /><br />Girl:JOhn keY.JOhn key.John keY(giggles for half a minute).Do you know that your name sounds like a donkeY?<br /><br />yes ladies and gentleman..they actually thought it was funny.I just think its a sad waste of talent since all of em were really quite good.<br /><br />And coming back to nudity yes!A scene where a guy is nude while reviewing a book and suddenly stands up and shows his genetalia to like everyone is nOT funny!!gross maybe,degrading('it' wasnt even impressive-) and a bit tad lame...but...wait..hold oN....they were giving himstanding oVations..like ppL stood up and actually clapped for hIM>...yeah they did...what part of a man showing his penis is funnY?yeah2 dets right...no part.keep ur grapes to urself..<br /><br />well,it wasnt really a surprise since half of em I suspect were already pissed.One girl(who really was very annoying) laughed at every single joke.slash that.every single word that came out of the performer's mouth....like full blown laughter..shaking heads.short breath.all that through out the whole show..I thot she wud sufficate but no such luck..she continued to laugh on till the end of the shoW.and if ur reading this...yes,im so talking about U!!!!green dress.not so very flattering shoe...wine glass at hand..yeah u!!!.and that was my friday night...Me and dzaf and lala have been going to these performances for a while..we thot that we mite absorb whatever we get..I mean the westerners are supposedly sophisticated and cultured are they not?So i find myself surprised at the desperado act to entertain the audience.whats wrong with a bit of stand uP comedY?Im sure there wud b no nudity in there! BUt kudos to they guy that I believe will contribute the creation of horrible nightmares I'm sure I'd b getting...<br /><br />On a more serious note,I felt horible when they started mocking christianity and I;m not even a follower.How can You mock ur own beliefs?WIthout beliefs,what r we?Who r wE?<br />Westerners have been going on about Y do we need to abide to no alcohol,no premarital sex and all the rules of Islam and I say to them,We're not complaining so why r u?Just because you dont believe,it doesnt mean the others who do r wrong.We might just be right.Sometimes you cant just depend on logic,you just believe(INSYAAALLAH)..so I guess dis is de end of my ramble-athoN..till then...for hopes of a better comedy SHow in Nz..=)fafahttp://www.blogger.com/profile/12070181261899188172noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-4358076702143358860.post-91784427565096794222009-03-21T23:59:00.000-07:002009-03-22T00:13:53.988-07:00Crap crappity craP.i hate being an adult.Apparently adulthood is all about responsibilty and like serious stuff which did i mention i hate?I was in educ 115 tutorial when my tutor said things that freaked me out.like literally.we were talking about how children were affected by the parents upbringing.The tutor mentioned that it would be a good idea to have a discussion with ur partner about how they want to bring up a child instead of talk about how many child you would want and all the usual cliches partners bring up.I dont know why but this statement just totally blew a hole in my head.Am I really adult enough to talk about child upbringing?I'm a child myself.I'm high maintanence.I cry when not fed and I burp after drinking milk.So yeah,just freaked and realized am an adult that could have actual human being depend on me.ARGHHHHHHHH!!!!!!did i mention shitty shitty shit shit?<br /><br />p/s:pardon my abusive use of language.Am freaked out that I'm not a drama queen teen anymore!fafahttp://www.blogger.com/profile/12070181261899188172noreply@blogger.com1tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-4358076702143358860.post-11025420243846875072009-03-08T23:46:00.000-07:002009-03-08T23:52:43.418-07:00pussy ahoy!!<div align="justify"> Heard the new remixed version of Jai Ho in a shopping mall.And lets just say its grotesque!!Sukhwinder Singh is like the best singer.JUst pissed off taht they changed a song that was unique in so many ways to another pussy cat dolls trashy hiTs...HOH!!</div><div align="justify"> And we had to cook at Moon's kitchen today cos there was like a million ppl on my floor using the kitchen.We need like timetables for who gets to cook and when coz tis situation of everyone being in the kitchen at the same time does not help my already awful day!!!Owh did i mention my day was horrendous.Am of to take a looooooooooooong nap so det I'll hopefully forget the fact that they altered one of my favourite songs and that this day was awfuL...huh!!!!!</div><div align="justify"> </div><div align="justify"> p/s:not much of a whiner usually but really Am having a bad day.And home sickness is kicking in.daYM it!!!</div><div align="justify"> </div><div align="justify"> </div><div align="justify"> </div><div align="justify"> </div>fafahttp://www.blogger.com/profile/12070181261899188172noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-4358076702143358860.post-72559489321503006722009-02-24T02:21:00.000-08:002009-02-24T02:37:51.078-08:00kiwi mucH!!<a href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEgKHziMjO6IXmuy3kbOGAYEjT8ZWuplfNOBOTKjb6ey4xFf7QnIc4VoLBTcXp7T3btvwV_WrgO1uI9JQRILBIGuIKvHCw-nN71RvFgeD3t1XGZBSbzvdd3SMZuJIxOeYSjRQKMeE2AsD4rQ/s1600-h/SDC10216.JPG"><img id="BLOGGER_PHOTO_ID_5306310650805956530" style="DISPLAY: block; MARGIN: 0px auto 10px; WIDTH: 320px; CURSOR: hand; HEIGHT: 240px; TEXT-ALIGN: center" alt="" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEgKHziMjO6IXmuy3kbOGAYEjT8ZWuplfNOBOTKjb6ey4xFf7QnIc4VoLBTcXp7T3btvwV_WrgO1uI9JQRILBIGuIKvHCw-nN71RvFgeD3t1XGZBSbzvdd3SMZuJIxOeYSjRQKMeE2AsD4rQ/s320/SDC10216.JPG" border="0" /></a><br /><div>Well,Ive been here in Kiwi Land for almost a week and I just finished unpacking my bag.Wanna know why?Cos all dis while,I didnt think I could fit in.Not to say that Auckland isnt amazing,trust me it is more than anything I could have imagined.I imagined myself having an awful time here but all the while I have actually been here they were quite fun.Like fuN!!the people are really friendly(they dont really glare at you quite so much here)-they dont push and the weather is absolutely nice-its cool and not too cold(though i do need more layer of clothing in my own opinioN).Yeah,back to the topic,I didnt think I could fit in.The people didnt seem to understand me,I'm short and to top it all off I was petrified at the thought of being new again.Having to learn the ways of things are not my biggest attributes.I suck at it.All this mingling and learning poeple's name and stuff.Yeah suck at it big times.But me and Lala went to this thing tonight that made me realize.Every one in Auckland(the new students aneway) are doing the exact same thing as me.Having to get to know people,having to get reintroduced,having to worry about whetehr theyre fun eunf or cool enuf or whatsoever.I mean I didnt think I was understandable but there were worse.So for now,I take a huge deep breathe and say I am going to move on.My resolution for today,Make everyday count.Ive struggled and studied like crazy and climbed down a really tall wall for this so I'm making it worthwhile.So to Lala,thank you for making me realize this and to more years of understanding and new beginnings.</div><br /><div></div><br /><div>p/S:me and Lala won second place at quiz night.So yes,am parading it around the net.Lol.</div><br /><div></div><br /><div></div>fafahttp://www.blogger.com/profile/12070181261899188172noreply@blogger.com2tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-4358076702143358860.post-85702589249395128192008-12-31T22:14:00.000-08:002009-01-01T01:50:13.103-08:00Shahrukh kHan and lugagge!!<span style="color: rgb(255, 204, 204);"><span style="color: rgb(0, 0, 0);"> My</span></span> six months holiday is coming to an end.in two days I will be once more enslaved to knowledge (not that iTs boring and aLL-dont get me wrong,i lovEEE what I:m doing-I wont change a thing) bt when you've been used to lounging around the house in your jammies 24 hours a day your brain kinda gets all mushy and gooey and you dont really see going to classes as a godsent.like hell it's not.TO keep my minda of the parting sorrow of my indolence(i dooooooooooont wanT!!!),I gladly accepted M's invite to sunway pyramid to go watch a movie and fry more of my brain cells(you want eggs with that-heeeee-Im funnY),technically I wanted to go out and I wanted to do sometin other than feel disgruntled over my ending indolence(that word is catchy-say it a 100 times with me!dunt u feel happier?-if u dont-go to a fun dr,get some happY pills-u fun popper-lololol) so we did!!<br /><br /><img src="file:///C:/DOCUME%7E1/user/LOCALS%7E1/Temp/moz-screenshot.jpg" alt="" /><br /><br /> I have to tell you this b4 you get lost in my ramblings-me n M went out like last week with Farah(our darling friends-M had such a hard time with our names since she calls both of us 'Fa',confusion mucH) to that said venue(pyramid lorh) and we saw tis stripey bag,cute seyH and more importantly affordable so M had this idea to buy her luggage for AustraLia there since she was smitten.The catch is that we didnt know what shop it ws,we just knew that the bag is displayed in fronT.We being the smart galsw naturallY r decided to just hentam kromo and go mindlessly around in hope of finding it so we did.And we didnt find it!!LOL.we spent countless hours going from a luggage shop to anoter.fun fun fun.Here's more fun,after hours of walking around in circles and bedazzled by the sheer size of pyramid* we nearly gave up when we decided to just go look at a bag and see if M might like any of it to replace that stripey bag thats set not to make an appearance-so went back in to the first shop-te cuir bag shop or something and lo and behold while fondling aorund the selection of fine bags-<span style="font-weight: bold;">VOILA </span>there it ws-de infamoust stripey baG!!! hidden at the back.Now dear readers,If you were in our place-looking for hours for tat bag but ironically it was in the first shop you went in-do you<br /><br />a) scream and put a paper bag over your head<br />b)hyperventilate and start to meracau<br />c)or check the bag out find out that it was small and not big enough for your educational needs(for your overseas education of course) and than buy another beg instead!!!<a onblur="try {parent.deselectBloggerImageGracefully();} catch(e) {}" href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEiPK5S549u4dFD7bnMl1Inw1wIJulkD9LP2QJzRRx2j0MrBttgB5E9zGCSPu8vF7AjGNIpjRoPqlAciUwZY7r7xHhnjD_Aeax1FHKnEmvbtq-5-gitR63rbVr0NFe6u-IsR8B7uXa9cAFq7/s1600-h/1_459726302l.jpg"><img style="margin: 0px auto 10px; display: block; text-align: center; cursor: pointer; width: 240px; height: 283px;" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEiPK5S549u4dFD7bnMl1Inw1wIJulkD9LP2QJzRRx2j0MrBttgB5E9zGCSPu8vF7AjGNIpjRoPqlAciUwZY7r7xHhnjD_Aeax1FHKnEmvbtq-5-gitR63rbVr0NFe6u-IsR8B7uXa9cAFq7/s320/1_459726302l.jpg" alt="" id="BLOGGER_PHOTO_ID_5286215608323061362" border="0" /></a><br /><br />Well done to those who chose c) .For those we didnt-I suggest a therapist.But all in all,It was victorious in two ways<br /><br />1) We found an actual traveling bag for M-and it ws gorgeous!!!<br />2) I got my mind oF langkawi for a few hours<br />So all's well tat ends well.MOst importantly,I had tonnes of fun..And a round of applause to M yg menonton her first ever cerita hindustan in the cinemas (i did kinda force her into it bt i swear there was no violence just a few death or life threatening threats.)Kudos to the filmmaker(aditya cHopra) who did the film.I havent seen a bollywood movie that is squeky clean-no vulgar language,no atrocious outfit and no over the top acting-in a long2 time.And to amazing king kHan-He just made me smile all day-ask M.sHe's a witness..hmm,wonder if we need a smiles witness protection program.hee--<br />like raJ kapoor said<br />'Phir milenge chalte chalt-haule2'<br /><br />*I'm so gonna miss M ,my siamese attached twin since I wont b seeing her for a month.LOts of love to Ya.muahXXX<a onblur="try {parent.deselectBloggerImageGracefully();} catch(e) {}" href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEjrau7FlLqyAmaZVFWp1mVEmbc6Bwy2eHam53jWHXgfOCb4_USsVCDTv6AToFh4x-xK2fwCQi10KeTNu5ryK89rgfztejKH_Pr7hOlDKkp8-HQp92w3UymC0N9BbIlPP1XLOTllnz1u48Qs/s1600-h/rab+ne+bana+di+jodi4e.jpg"><img style="margin: 0px auto 10px; display: block; text-align: center; cursor: pointer; width: 320px; height: 225px;" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEjrau7FlLqyAmaZVFWp1mVEmbc6Bwy2eHam53jWHXgfOCb4_USsVCDTv6AToFh4x-xK2fwCQi10KeTNu5ryK89rgfztejKH_Pr7hOlDKkp8-HQp92w3UymC0N9BbIlPP1XLOTllnz1u48Qs/s320/rab+ne+bana+di+jodi4e.jpg" alt="" id="BLOGGER_PHOTO_ID_5286216352348409218" border="0" /></a>fafahttp://www.blogger.com/profile/12070181261899188172noreply@blogger.com4tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-4358076702143358860.post-79255809847681103442008-12-28T07:31:00.000-08:002008-12-31T22:14:48.500-08:00dinner dasH!!<a onblur="try {parent.deselectBloggerImageGracefully();} catch(e) {}" href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEjWPo4ULh12KYAw-sUm3kthboNHrbgvUvpVcrotHQ03nxffbNGbh6IN4hj5vwQ4MCnusv50-iGZwf4i81BmU0_k4QADHNf73ShigKIzqy6vxIl0ow6M2OjxlYgrssn008c576zRoXEitBZ2/s1600-h/dinner.jpg"><img style="margin: 0px auto 10px; display: block; text-align: center; cursor: pointer; width: 320px; height: 240px;" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEjWPo4ULh12KYAw-sUm3kthboNHrbgvUvpVcrotHQ03nxffbNGbh6IN4hj5vwQ4MCnusv50-iGZwf4i81BmU0_k4QADHNf73ShigKIzqy6vxIl0ow6M2OjxlYgrssn008c576zRoXEitBZ2/s320/dinner.jpg" alt="" id="BLOGGER_PHOTO_ID_5284877354648508978" border="0" /></a><br /><br /><br /><a onblur="try {parent.deselectBloggerImageGracefully();} catch(e) {}" href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEi7qOpUJiRsT2X80GUZ4ROLtYaqX9MXg0QzW8N-Gwpd_ojEwjMOBD4DfyPP9mMZNZ1ir6rLFotQArr3V0IpmzJpA2t6cdtW5RMBsPbiR3lCIxJEoGuw5AjklU6ndfVJgu-kpjYdpd5ETY1P/s1600-h/2.jpg"><img style="margin: 0px auto 10px; display: block; text-align: center; cursor: pointer; width: 320px; height: 240px;" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEi7qOpUJiRsT2X80GUZ4ROLtYaqX9MXg0QzW8N-Gwpd_ojEwjMOBD4DfyPP9mMZNZ1ir6rLFotQArr3V0IpmzJpA2t6cdtW5RMBsPbiR3lCIxJEoGuw5AjklU6ndfVJgu-kpjYdpd5ETY1P/s320/2.jpg" alt="" id="BLOGGER_PHOTO_ID_5284877161858763698" border="0" /></a><br />Out with me friends.These lot Ive known for like forever,in technical term nearing 8 years.All of us r kinda far2 apart from each other yet theyre still my sister (and brothers) from another motherHahaha(i think that ws funnY.NO?pretend to laugh aneways,pretty pliZZ).Had a blast of a time.We kinda do this ritual thing,go for a dinner at some fancy place,dress up and fight over the bill later on.lolLol..as zati said,we shud have brought the calculator lorh.I actually drove at night!!So wohoo for me!!Let me tell you that I rock(vain moment-bear with me) and we saw azfar for the first time with his chipped tooth,he actually looked adorable iN a painfuL way(he kinda had an incident where he collapsed in the toilet and woke uP to two broken teeth and a whole pool of blood!gore much dude.buT azfar being azfar ws totally cool with it- i would literally hide in a locked up tower till my teeth is fixed so he;s kinda like braveheart -to speedy recoverY!).And to me frens,to the toast we didnt quite sempat buat(so much talking at the same time-God damn it we're loud)!!!<br /><br />To friendshiP<br />To us<br /><br />LOve love lovefafahttp://www.blogger.com/profile/12070181261899188172noreply@blogger.com1tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-4358076702143358860.post-60928604670763483642008-12-20T10:39:00.001-08:002008-12-21T08:15:16.310-08:00I was reading thru my blog and I just realized I<span style="font-weight: bold;"> NEVER </span>actually tell people what my everyday activity is actually like.In my opinion,it creates a lure of mystery,tp my sister was like"y do have a blog if the only thing you write about is basically just stuff running through ur head"-so baekla nad(drama queen mucH),i'll try writing more about my everyday boring life..Dont snooze off just yeT.I;m not done.Was yming with ppL,and jason asked me to go check out his blog(my pictures were posted-well,technically so was anisah's and kara's and cat's and every other kms person,but stiLL>>>>) aneways.I just realized that kms ws actually kind of fUN!And it wasnt the sort of fun yg cam the place itself is fun(yeah...kms..fuN...noT) but the people innit.so here's a couple of shoutout to the ppL that made Kms amazing..<br /><br />1<span style="font-weight: bold;">)honeY,anisaH and haJar</span><br />-honestly,these three r like my guardian angel.I mean they r seriously responsible for me turning out just fine and not losing any limbs in the process..<br /><span style="font-weight: bold;">Hani's line of duty</span><br />-kejut aku bangun tido whether pagi2 or klas pTG<br />-kejut bgn mkN( i sleep aloT.yes!)<br />-tman makan-pose ke,lapar ke,midnight snacks ke(die la tukang tmaN.do not be fooled by her size-she has a healTHy appetite..i repeat heaLTHY.)...hehe<br />-she kinda keeps me in check,salah ke betuL ke..and she's another virtuaL roommate..heHe..<br />-and she takes care of me,pape poN hani wiLL correct.superFriend..serioUslY!<br /><br /><br /><br /><span style="font-weight: bold;">Hajar dan Anisah</span><br />>they helped me out in so many ways,I cant thank them enough<br />-my workout buddies-they;d go exercise with me anytime,tennnis ke ,paula abdul workout or just jogging(ingat x abng windbreaker-miss him so!!)<br />-they force me to actually study,i literally do have a bad study habit so tehyre there to remind me that I have to work hard and that I can do it-which proved to b true)<br />-the two plus Hana actually walked barefoot with me inside subang parade (my shoe obviously had to totally dismantle there and theN) tho ppL were literally gawking...soooooooooooo sweet.<br />-theyre like my stepmoms-garang and very menakutkan at times but i loveeeeeeeeeee them to death and i THink they kind of adore me at times(i'm just naturally adorable.lololololo)..hehe.am not kidding when I say I'll miss u guys like hell.enjoY wellington for me will yoU.<br /><br />2)<span style="font-weight: bold;">fana dan MuniraH</span><br />-my virtual roommates-theyre not really technically my roommate-if its so important to b tchnical- but i do spend like half of my time in their room( I'm surprised that they at times dont just slam the door in my face or just pretend like they;re not in the room to get me to leave)<br />-again,I basically do everytHing with them-exercise(yoga session kan Fana?),makan(anisah's rice cooker contribution deserve an award all by itself) and sesi gossip -spT biase..hehe<br />-me and fana also came to a mutual understanding-i bear with her korean/japanese/chinese stuff and she bears wth my bollywood/atiF aslam(yes i know he;s gay) obsession.quite an understanding-<a onblur="try {parent.deselectBloggerImageGracefully();} catch(e) {}" href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEhHgAj4GRsImyJ5Lgzv5aPvU60faPNzfBeC3DKXK_DXIsk-_fJ4YLYlmWNXEeUxaTGFy7ETtjZw8YmwWDKp6GJ_5_98KI-yo5v2taS7ybKFjTGuYHIc7KjoXSh96yaBxLsIojsaUCO7NLip/s1600-h/fana+n+moon.jpg"><img style="margin: 0px auto 10px; display: block; text-align: center; cursor: pointer; width: 320px; height: 240px;" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEhHgAj4GRsImyJ5Lgzv5aPvU60faPNzfBeC3DKXK_DXIsk-_fJ4YLYlmWNXEeUxaTGFy7ETtjZw8YmwWDKp6GJ_5_98KI-yo5v2taS7ybKFjTGuYHIc7KjoXSh96yaBxLsIojsaUCO7NLip/s320/fana+n+moon.jpg" alt="" id="BLOGGER_PHOTO_ID_5282276268771482098" border="0" /></a><br /><br /><br /><br /><br /><br />3<span style="font-weight: bold;">)my roommates(yat dan sare)</span><br />-we really r quite different tp we ok jerk steady till the end..2 tahn duk same2 and I had a blast with em.Bnyk jugak la incident yg boleh membawa mereke ke arah kepsychoan( due to yours trulY) tp they waddled thru..the kucing beranak dlm locker incident-for example La..heeeeeeeeee.......u guys will always be the best roommates(technicallY cos i never had a roommate b4 and that I;m getting a single room in auckland!HOHO) like literally ever!!<br /><br />4) <span style="font-weight: bold;">My teslian crew</span><br />-diorng sgt sabar ngan all my crazy whacked up ideas-de bisexual theory and sometimes my know it all attitude(if you ave not heard of my theory u do not know me at all!!)<br />-I could express myself freely without judgements dlm klas.class ws never just boriNG-how can it b boring with hana n hajar in IT(ultimate compliment!!)<br />-kpd teslians juge,i call for a moment to remember the hillarious(top five funny moment in class) incident where ade lipas got into dzafarin;s pants-god,that was bloody funtastic!<br /><a onblur="try {parent.deselectBloggerImageGracefully();} catch(e) {}" href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEinv7fjX-3OcTHk3RIWKzNGtd26dLGcac2cf_FoeDgxnrHPRB5bjH9Qmz-RricEdEDNGAG7zeOuTdxbaccbBKZXb7RGcrW5N6aEMfQUVwUh6J2QPFh2czwbOObOrbC3uiqFfASMUNjJDxDp/s1600-h/1_934836813l.jpg"><img style="margin: 0px auto 10px; display: block; text-align: center; cursor: pointer; width: 320px; height: 261px;" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEinv7fjX-3OcTHk3RIWKzNGtd26dLGcac2cf_FoeDgxnrHPRB5bjH9Qmz-RricEdEDNGAG7zeOuTdxbaccbBKZXb7RGcrW5N6aEMfQUVwUh6J2QPFh2czwbOObOrbC3uiqFfASMUNjJDxDp/s320/1_934836813l.jpg" alt="" id="BLOGGER_PHOTO_ID_5282276390450245714" border="0" /></a><br /><br />5)<span style="font-weight: bold;">The vice members</span><br />-kara,hajar,anisah,ben,ikram,jamil,syafiq,caT,james,sYa and me...<br />-time always fly when we talk and talk and talk and plan and plan and pLan<br />-also cheers for the discovery of my peak smart Hour-rupe2nye I'm smartest at 4 in the morninG!lol-theory semate mate tHO<br />-we'll always have the best memory of the no firework but still a merdeka celebration trip we went on(so much for pulau perhentian,and pd,and putrajaya and gentINg and a million other places---)-countdowns were never that much fun before U gUYs..cheesy much..i know..<br /><img src="file:///C:/DOCUME%7E1/user/LOCALS%7E1/Temp/moz-screenshot.jpg" alt="" /><img src="file:///C:/DOCUME%7E1/user/LOCALS%7E1/Temp/moz-screenshot-1.jpg" alt="" /><br /><br /><br />So all in all,Kms was bloody well fantastic.<br />In memories of times in KMs<br />X0x0x0x0x0x<br /><span style="font-weight: bold;"> </span>fafahttp://www.blogger.com/profile/12070181261899188172noreply@blogger.com4tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-4358076702143358860.post-24358940051297761752008-12-17T09:28:00.000-08:002008-12-17T09:30:06.139-08:00excuse ME!I just read My last post and I sound a teeny bit loony so just ignore de post will Ya..i would have deleted it but I did actually like it so I'm just gonna keep it posted till my hormone;s all staBle.LOLfafahttp://www.blogger.com/profile/12070181261899188172noreply@blogger.com2tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-4358076702143358860.post-1329057475648252552008-12-17T08:40:00.000-08:002008-12-17T09:21:51.193-08:00Why I'm stumped..For all those who has remotely ever seen me before,my physical attributes are not so attractive.Yes,i admit it.I was morbidly obese and I was stuck in that condition for years.When I was a child,i Was merely chubby( i was literally cute and adorable) bt as years past by,more pounds just clinged on to me for dear life.My mom(who I know is right) keep telling me,long you should watch your weight,you;re young and yOu have a whole life ahead of you but me being as stubborn as an ass(i weighed like an ass too!),I bluntly refused.This is my weight problem and no one should tell me what I should and should not do.So my school times passed on with me being a social retard since I:m fat and well useless.I;ve never quite told anyone this but even my own friends thought i was slow and lazy And I wasnt,That was seriously a betrayal beyond belief.MY cikgu seni when i was in f5 was was like godsent and she would let us seniors hang out at her art studio if we want to skip classes in exchange for some help and we did but i Vividly remember her saying,farah,x payah la tolong.biar ....(let them not be named ) tolong,diorng rajin skit.I wouldnt be so disgruntled if indeed I was a lazy cow on my chair,calling my movements to find a comfortable position 'work' than by all means say that to me,but I was not.Honest.I worked hard,even more than those skinny girls yet you think they;d notice .no.the skinny girls get the recognition.Yes i was slower in movements and didnt float about the air like the skinny ones when they walk but I will not be called lazy,not when Idont deserve to.I know you ppl will be saying wats the point of this blog,get to your motives you sloww ass..Im gettin to it.My fantasy as a fat girl,is to be thin.To be in this euphoriac state of happiness when I;m thinner.MY dreams will all come true.My prince charming and my life will just fall into place.NO more feeling insecure,no more feeling unworthy.And i held on to that fantasy for dear life.But life isnt all black and white right.I am now a little smaller.MY accumulated weight loss is nearing 20 kgs but surprise2 I miss being fat.At first,I was in a stage of euphoria,I could fit into clothes i could just dream about b4.PPl complimented me and so on.But today,I"m stumped.<br /><br /> I realize today that I can never be picture perfect.That my fantasy will not come ture.Im thinner but Im not happier.Im constantly questioning as to y im still not attractive.The older me wud have just said ,alah fa,ur fat.no one;s looking at you but the new me is still as unhappy as ever..I dont know what im really trying to say.But all i know is I miss being fat.Atleast I knew under all det layer my true self is there,ppl might jeer and sneer but I still am me.My life is full of dissattisfaction.I dont know whether its because Of my fantasy or whther I just havent found the new me yet.I do hope i find her soon tho cos I really miss the old me..<br /><br />P/s.I dunt know what im writing here.All i know is tat being thinner doesnt solve any of my problems like i thot it wud...tat sucks ..i know!fafahttp://www.blogger.com/profile/12070181261899188172noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-4358076702143358860.post-49281236904466880482008-10-17T09:45:00.000-07:002008-10-17T10:03:43.684-07:00ten things i love about rayE!!<span style="font-weight: bold;"><br /> <span style="font-family: courier new;">TEn things I love aboUT raYE!!</span><br /><br /></span> >de fooD<br /> >de festivity<br /> >Duit rayE!!-the wave of genuine gratitude for xtra moneY-even two bucks contributes in my dream oF a shopping xtravaganzA!<br /> >how familY comes together on raya daY-the ppl u lUv all around you<br /> >how forgiving we cn be those who've done wrong during this month-we learn to b a better daughter,friend ,sister or just a better person*<br /> >it gives u a solid excuse to dress up and look nice.sape kate utk orng.there's this thig called self satisfactioN..<br /> >yoU can drop by anyone;s house and they wont turn yoU down..x baek kalau halau orng bulan2 baek ni!<br /> >you get to wear heels..i mean dets de best thing for baju kurung..i vouch for its validity...tip,dunt wear heels on soft grOunds,u;d sink-seriouslY...its not funny if ur waddling around trying to pull urself out of the sucking mud!!scarY gLer*<br /> >I get to write y i Love raye>>><br /><br />P/S:i know ppl ,me included sometimes r so absorbed with kumpuling duit raye,and all the glOry that comes with eid..i propose that tis raye -look around u-and thank god(ALHAMDULILLAH) that youre around the ppl you love-eid is a month of victory and what is victory if you have no one to share it with*<br /><br />Happy Eid Mubarak<br />Seamat Hari raYa~~<span style="font-weight: bold;"><br /></span>fafahttp://www.blogger.com/profile/12070181261899188172noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-4358076702143358860.post-89601669010503301162008-09-27T12:25:00.000-07:002008-09-27T12:48:24.019-07:00Life!!<br /><br /> I know life is unfair but I've never been slapped with the reality of life quite like this before..I was browsing trough the e-mail sent by our new zealand agent for application n stuff and I noticed there was a few e-mail addresses i have no idea of..My heart just stopped and I realized that it's reaLLy true .there is 5 other girls who r joining us ..5 strangers we dont know of.and a sledgehammer of thought hit me ..how unfair is life..these new ppl were younger than us and ironically has no background at all in The wide plane of English..one of them ws a business major for goodness sake..some of them were in labs with goggles on,mixing chemistries and blowing up stuff while the 20 of us slaved and laboured,pondering on Keats and dat damn bard,Shakespeare..I know its really not theyre fault as to them not slaving away with the rest of us..ladY luck smiled on them..who can hate them for it...but how unfair is life??<br /><br /> We 20 people were different in so many ways..some were just plain rowdY(me!me),some were well naivettes learning the ropes of life,some determined to make it into this so called easy program .In the two years we were together,we were literally brothers and sister..Like normal siblings,feuds r common bt we were also bonded in such a strong tie of poems and love,fiercely loyal to each Teslian. We shared secrets,late night meals(ok..meal..nasi lemak is not a snack is it),thought on thet freaky Woolf person,jokes and banters,also tears and frustratioNs.So yes,life is unfair.They seperate our physical form but they can never scar our memories..<br /><br />Really,this is not my way of tarnishing the newcomers but really an input as to what I felt deeply 4.I'm not a bitter and jealous classmate(maybe just a tiny part of me is..they saved one whole year!i feel old!)but a sorrowed friend who doesnt want to say goodbye to a good time and to good friends..<br /><br />To my Tesl Dolls,I love you aLL...fafahttp://www.blogger.com/profile/12070181261899188172noreply@blogger.com5tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-4358076702143358860.post-62120659724822251742008-09-17T09:45:00.001-07:002008-09-17T10:31:52.093-07:00greek!!I just wrote a really long description of my favourite tV shows detailing on how much i lovvvveee and live for crappy american tv shows that keep showing teen angst with of course gorgeous ppl portraying it and i thot I might actually be a succesful tv critic or sumthing-i mean my articles on tv guide-what a dreaM!!unfortunately-i am alsoo really klutzy-i deleted the wHole entry without even having any idea as to what i accidentally pressed to make it all go away..so now-i decide-karma's against me on the tv show critique gig,i m so set up for bigger thing..so while waiting for the big amazing thing that karma has for me to fall on my lap-i'm gonna go lipat bajU and watch summore of that crappy tv show so that if i decide i want to fall back on the tv gig career i'd have had my research dOne-does anyone understand this entry cos I am right now officially jst pissed at my pc for being too smart and deleting my entry without me telling it to..so till theN>>>>>>>cappI awaits me****go greeK!!!<br /><br />p/s:the tv shows that u so need to watch if u havent<br />-greek(like duH!) -veronica mars-90210-privileged-gosip girl-the secret life of the american teenager-pushing daisy-more oprah-these will ensure that u ave enuf candy floss and cheesy feel to ur everyday liFE!!ooo-and new season of next top model-i hate the draG!!fafahttp://www.blogger.com/profile/12070181261899188172noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-4358076702143358860.post-12624513126480376152008-09-17T09:45:00.000-07:002008-11-01T09:29:10.682-07:00teen sHowsSince i am gloriously uNemployeD and enjoying every minute of it(minus all the groaning about being bored out of my skiN..=) ) ,i spend my time doing what normal teenagers while on vacation do-minus the find part time work- i watch crappY american tV sHows and get so addicted to it,you might just need cranes to move me from my seat since i'm practically glued to my pc screeN.(my poor mother,tried luring me with some mother love-she needs more good stuff.fast food maybE..)..since I'm In the mood to help my fellow peep who wants to actively partakE and join me in my marshmellow land,filled witH amazingly ridiculous amounT of good looking ppL here is a guide to all de cheese flicks yoU want .i guarantee yoU..try the sHows,and u'll b as hooked as a fisH(verY lame metapHore..is iT even a metaphOre?lol)..<br /><br />1)<span style="font-weight: bold;">Gossip Girl<br />-</span>I seriously doubt that U ppl need introduction to this drama hour..so,lets just skiP to it and state the five reason y this is a MUst<br />....the designer cLothes..big surprise there(dripping in sarcasm here)...i mean..the clothes they wear might even cost even more than my house!!. it is after all about the upper east side.<br />...the fact that the cast is just ridiculously beautifuL..i think like all of them r on the list of People's beautiful people list(te magazinE..=)-<br />....the gossipinG..my favourite thing after the cloThes-and the narrator-kirsten beLL(she is my favourite tv voice)<br />.....chucK and his wacky sense of fashion..i like green pants and purple jumpers...hoT!!<br />...chucK!!<br /><br />2)<span style="font-weight: bold;">90210</span><br />-it's a remake of beverly hills 90210 thUs the zip code title..ive nerver actually watched the original series but i'm guessing its also about teens..??maybe..aneways,its a pretty good timepass if ur like me and must watch everything tat is even remotely about drama..its about this two kids from wisconsin(i think..or was it texas.?)-well somewhere- trying to fit in the 90210 areA..goodluck with that..<br />there is loads and loads of backlashing and puppy love -a HOT teacher-(since I'm way to old to be crushing on the kids in this show-so passe) ..vice-the actresses r like stick thin..chips have more fat on em than these kids..it'll make yoU wanna cut down on the food intake..start starving yourself maybe-but if ur dysfunctional lyke me-u'd wander to ur kitchen ,gobble on some edibles and wonder if u cud grab the food on ur screen-well theyre not eating it..might just as well eat tem ..u'd be doing them a favour..they'll stay skeletal and u'll b happy and fed..=)<br /><br />3)<span style="font-weight: bold;">veronica mArs<br /> -</span>I without a doubt adore veronica to deatH-not literally tho-this is actually a pretty different genre than the others.less marshmellow more dark choc..dunt get me wrong,the drama is still there and you bectha ,a bundle of em ..the lead,veronica mars is a hell of a roll model..sHe's funnY, drippiNg with sarcasm(the best quality in a girl-i want i want)..a brilliant p.I(i wIsh i ws her) and every bad boy-but good inside-wants her secretly.she can solve a mystery at the drop of a pin..and she has a taser which she puts to very good use...i also want the bad boysecretly good boy lure ,and the deep sarcasm...how does farah snickers,private investigator sound?(do you get my pun to her chocolate bar name...plz say u do cos if not,id just b very lamE)...<br /><br /><br />4)<span style="font-weight: bold;">Greek</span><br />-This is te last sHow on my list..do I hear a mental hooray?...well,this show is more my age since teyre no more in high school ..revolving around two siblings enrolled at cyprus rhode university..both are in the greek system-mening frats and sororities.-and we the audience get to see the two battle love triangles,go through hazes,party with em and most importantly feel like ur such a loser for being a university student without experiencing wat theyre havIng..yeah,as depressing as this show is,,it is seriously funny-if it doesnt at all tickle ur funnY bone-i'll persOnally come and tickle u myself,or slap u on te head and question ur ability to pick up funny stuff-ur funny mentality depends on this show..my favourite fraT-undeniably cappa taU-teyre rowdy and they ave a hell of a timE...and cappY is so daym adorable...fafahttp://www.blogger.com/profile/12070181261899188172noreply@blogger.com0