spring oH spring

Finally finished with all the assIgnments and all the test before the final doom exam daY!!!but i have atleast 2 weeks to think about that so lets tOHoK (throw) it jauh2 for now..a bit jittery cos i seriously think i now have a wicked bout of insomnia or I'd like it xleh tido nyaYa..huhu..yes,I cannot for the life of me sleep.dh brape lame i've passed of meagre closed eye time for sleep .hopefully with everything behind me>i can focus on getting some beauty sleep cos im lOOking like a witch with like Boring black drab clothes for most time.lets recap whats new this past few non blog writing moments eYH...well,balek malaysia time is coming to a near so im all excited.i really am a boring person.nothing ever happens to me...owh wait something did

yesterday,had this crazy cravings for jewel of india's butter chicken.for those who dont know.its our campus solution to kedai mamak tho its expensive as hell and I dont thnk the ppl there wud tolerate being called anei,LOL..aneways,i bought mua looovely butter chicken and was all xcited about it.even had the guts to mintak kuah lbih tu de server girl...owh thou beauty.May I have a little more porton of thoU delicious heaven made gravy and she did..ay maiden-i give You some..so jumping with joy i I did and headed towards this brick building i call home..i cud just imagine -food-youtube-aNtm-perfect match..i reached de gf and what did i see-the neighbour i have had for the past year who i really have nothing to say too so wanted to just rush into the lift without having to make like really awkward small talk and i did.but the lift was going to close.my cognitive thinking which is in Par with like the dumbest blonde in the world shouted silently in my head "tahan tahan lift" so i dgn pandai nye menghulur my beautiful butter chicken and the lift -the lift-the lift-crushed it.like penyet sebelah.and my hand was like inches away from the lift.my beautiful2 gravy was like mengalir turun and a few ktol nasi fell on the floor.yes-the unbearable humiliation I had to endure.hani swore to me that one guy actually terlopong tgK..after somebody was kind enuf to react tO the event-since i was not functioning at any point in that situation.got into the lift and quickly ran into my shame shelter.

I just have this thing with me.I'm clumsy.and i know that ppl think i'm just like self fulfilling my prophecy and i really aM not clumsy but just be around me for a few weeks ,be around me for 24 hours and u will know that i put the clum in clumsy...whatever that is..hauahahahhaha...

okeyh,will try to get a third attempt at sleep.wish me luck eyh...really really need it or mite just start breaking down crying for no reason.god,sleep is so important.

owh,and de start of de summer is so annoying..i being de very suke glap person hates the fact that there's like a lot more sunlight now.its like trang benderang at 6 and i despise light when I need sleep...hUHUHU

cranky clumsy

Fafa Hani

kemalasan melampaU^^

i know that this topic is something that is such a cliche of a topic when it comes to studenst that as soon as anyone sees this topic,they'll say-whether outloud or in their head-elO,hang ingat hang sorang ke malas.aku pon malas tp xde la writing pasal it-hehe.well,i'm sorry but writing about it makes me feel guilty as to why im so freaking lazy and remind myself that i need to start kicking my own lazy butt and start working on the educ 113 assignmenta nd langteach101 essay but i have verY good reason for not working on it and putting all my frenzied caught up feeling in this blOg instead.I am stuck^^ as in in deep s**t and God only knows how I'm ever gonna finish these assignments.doubting my potential or even future abilities as a teacher if i cant even make out what langteach is all about.i mean its 101 for goodness sake.can it get any more basic.maybe i'll b one of those dysfunctional teachers yg cam teach from the text book.like literally teach from the text book.

situation in class

teacher fafa masuk class
"good morning ms farah"
duduk duduk-erm jap,ape ek dlm bahase inggeris-ha sit on your chair sit sit
thank you teacher
thank you too murid2
okey today we do some grame la ek.take text book and open page 3..yes yes
okey so can everybody do de whole page.when nk abes time u mark ur partners work
if any problem you ask your frens ek.i am teaching u self autonomy-penting budak2 blajar sendiri.arite-okey..very good

then moves to teacher table
start taking out leaflets and ads
"eih,before u stat ur work ek.ade x anyone nk give anything to mummy diorng mader's day ni.come come.i got new catalogue.tupperware,avon.but no hutang2 ek.cash only"

Huhuhu...very scary thought.oooo..oooo..makes me wanna go study .see,told you it helps to talk about u being malas..
LOl
till then

ms lazy pants faFa

Three days till raye and the raye frenzy is kicking in full gear.the frenzy here does not and will never refer to the excitement of nk beraye kat perantauan but the utter despair and gut wrenching sickness in the pit of my stomach That i have everytime anything reminds me that i will not be with my family raye ni-skyped ngan umi xdi and bertambah lah lg ke frenzian kpale ku.saw umi and nad's batch of kueh raye-looked pretty good but made umi janji yg die xkan buat kueh arab until I balek-so basically it'll be kueh arab utk raye haJI..lOL..a hillarious rmedy to my yearning for home is kisah nad and her so called biskut raye aspirations-

for those who do not know who nad is -she is my annoying yet tolerable sister-nadiah hani bnt hussein-used to call her nerd tp she was annoyed so I changed It to nad tho i cud have come with a btter nickname-nadiyot,yot ke.lol.aneways

tahun ni sempena ketiadaan I kat umah tu and no one to boss her around she got the idea that it wud be fantastic to buat kueh raye sorang2-me n my mom can never trust her cookIng ways so she decided to buat chocalate chip cookies without my mom's hawk eyes.my mom bangun dr a nap and saw her working on the cookie dough gune resipi kawn bek die-sO she did-and everyone else was like wow-nad-ur actually not hopeless.or so they thought(my famly is so easy to believe in change especially when it comes to nadiah changing, I for one am not>>lol)

aneways,bile balek trawekh,my sibs and parents pon dgn excited nye mengtry all de cookies dey made tengah haritu and when it came to nad's biscuit,bee was really tamak and took two.stuffed it in his mouth and spat it back"erm,kueh masen ke nI?"angah who didnt believe bee took a bite and spat it with more rigour and so did mY parents-lol,de red faced nad said"achik ltak 3 table spooon salt jer" and they started laughing at her-lol...dear gullible sister-u dont put three spoon of salt in a cookie batch-i guess she must have messed it uP with three pinch or sumthing>so now we have three balang of choc chip cookies that no one will touch-well done nad-wish I was there tho-its not quite sO fun laughing at her thru skYpe.loL.

its all for now i guess,kna g siap nk bukak pose kat suriani since we ran out of ayam and beras-two main things for any malaysian meaL..hehe..till then.
and before i forget >>slamat ari raye maaaf zahir batIN to anyone and everyone reading

toodles

ms evILLL
farah fafa hanI

7 hari sebelum raye..

what do ppl call the 7 days before raye?the hari likur likat or somethinG?for my sake lets call it the closing days of ramadhan>>>ramadhan this year has undeniably been beautifuL>>i mean de bond between every one in Auckland(HUia especiallY) is really evident and sometimes I really do bliV that ramadhan brings out the best in everyone-everyone-everyone.

Raya feelings shud b here by now but feeling totally subdued-maybe its de lack of raya preperations here.de mid sem holiday is coming to an end and am really proud to say that I did nothing exciting or near exciting whatsoever in the past two weeks.all i did was dream and dream and dream .skali skale adela nigtmare-huahahhaa...

Today bukak pose yg agak best and I think we have outdone ourself.like literally-its so menghairankan knape kalau x bulan pose,we make do with really lazy cooking but bile bulan pose ni,we cook like its the end of the world,or de end of food as we know it tomorrow.kalau mkn utk 4 orang,masak utk like 20 ppL-dets what u call tamak haloba(I think thats what u call it kan?)>>aneways,menu today was sup tUlang(panas and pedas-a very good combination),stir fried veges and telUr dadar.for those yg ckp,hekler,lauk tu jer nk kecoh-lauk aku time malas gle rtuh-well ,To u I say it is a kejayaan for us so shut up and let me do my victory dance aneways

and we berempat(me,farah,mun and hanI) buat butter cake_ and the best part is,it was actually pretty good.de kueh's we've tried to do like butir nangka and bubur cha cha though not to say they were disasterous could just be classified as okeyla,boleh makan.but dis cake was beautiful.wanted to weep and cry and hug dis butter baby we made-terharu sgt.hahaha...

owh,7 days lg nk raye-now plizzzzzzzzzzz,tell me what to do utk rase cam even a bit pon xcited nk raye cos im desperate here-just dont suggest lagu raye cos all it does is make me cry and crave for home all the more-huaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa

and an early eid mubarak shoutout

slamat ari raye aidilfitir-maaf zahir dan batiN-

farah hani

perantaun ladki=)

pose nk dtg>>

Well,ramadhan is only a few days away and I really have not made up my mind as to whether this is interesting or really the worst thing that has ever happened-All my life,dr kcik I wanted to b one of those ppl yg belajar kt luar negara and I m one of em so I shud have been jumping of joy when realized that when I wanted to experience other countries,I shud b aware that I wud also b enjoying the Ramadhan-Nz experience and also the Eidul Fitri-Nz experience and trust me I was not.Or if I were,i was really trying to put it at the back of My head coz de holy months without ur beloved ones r just not that special but YA ALLAH,just make me strong enuf to not break down everyday>>hehe..aneways,to all..i just wanted to wish you guys a Happy Eid Mubarak.Its definately interesting..

Speaking of interesting,just read the news and was really shocked when I read the news that Srk was detained by the immigration at an American airport just because he has the name Khan which is black listed or suMthing.really feel hatred for America now.I mean this is Shahrukh Khan for goodness sake-he is obviously no terrorist bomber or if he was,he is really gud at hiding his actual hardcore love for mati shahid since he's like a liberal Islam(sgt bahaye but that makes him like not even a threat)-kalau Srk who is like a freaking big star gets held up at the airport and had to go thru really rigorous questioning than imagine how its like for normal ppl who just incidentally have surnames like Hussein and etc.Come on ppl.Just cos a few ppL think its fun to blow themself up,it aint transalating to everyone doing it.I mean,Americans have a really high rate for divorce but I dont see them not allowing anyone to get married since they'll just get divorced aneways.U get what i mean?IT;s a cross cultural world and generalization has got to stop.Try to understand them individually and not label ppl..I guess that's good advice for me as well.

That's liek all I have to say

Later
Pissed King Khan Fan

H1N1

Been reading the Malaysian papers lately and the H1N1 case is rampage.I mean 56 people is a lot.I mean even one is a lot.I'm just praying my hardest to god that people I love is safe and sound.What makes this suckier is the fact that I'm thousands of miles away from my loved ones.It's funny that when the influenza was widespread here,I didnt worry about it-no sweat-sure,I knew about it but big deal?but when its near ur luved ones,its like ur heart start to beat faster and u start to feel seram sejuk about the fact that ur like so far far away from em.

Moving on to sumthing a little light hearted,I have managed to masak my first ever batch of cekodok ikan bilis.Sure,its not the best and sure one quarter of it was a bit overdone but atleast it was own effort.THough thinking about it feels really lame since am a twenty one year old woman(yeke?) and still have not grasped basic food preparation.all de Est classes to waste..hihihihi..

Talking about families and food have managed to bring me to a new level of depression.tahap dewa nye.homesickness is kicking in full force.my mind is nowhere here.its somewhere floating around.maybe it;ll come back once I;m on de plane to Malaysia.Am just trying to take it slow for now.Trying hard to enjoy things in life but really not being able to.Anyone know any cure or remedies for a serious bout of homesickness.

I so miss home that I was weeping like crazy when I heard lagu2 raye(yes2 i am lame since ive downloaded them already for raye yg berzaman lg) yg talking about sedare cos basically no sedare here.But on good side,have managed to label everyone in my class with sedare status. I think hani is like my aunt and bee is liek my sister-many positions are still available.U just need to fill in forms like y u think I'd make a rocking sedare-Hint^anything to do with me being compatible with any bollywood star is like so totally digalakkan-

P/s:i am so hormonally and emotionally unstable that when I watched Marley and Me yesterday,i sobbed and cried and blubbed in to the tissue when Marley died and didnt stop crying for like 30 minutes.for dos who didnt watch it,its a movie about a dog-yep,dog and I cried a river-I'm that pathetic.Owh,just read own word,seem to be doing a lot of crying-Miss Fafa cry alot-nice ring to it huh?

Fafa Hani

Queen Teary Baby

realized that me and bridget jones has like very very similar traits and one of the most obvious-- is that both always either falls on ass very unflatteringly or say something utmostly stupid and denounce own intelligence by lyke 100 points....also embarassing things always happen at all times.have to be very careful always and wish could find body armour that would not be so bulky as to add 5 kg to already very bulky body.latest embarassing adventure,got on flight to auckland a day to early.was very comfortably seated and had fasten seat belt.was very sure that self was being brave and stoic at times where phobia of heights was really kicking in...tried very much to look very poised and calm-than a somewhat cross looking man commented that self was seating in his seat,very angry at man for disturbing time of piece.strongly said no in correct seat(somewhat in a snobbish way) and quickly reached out for boarding pass to show that self was respectable and could perfectly be able to read boarding pass ticket.showed it to cross man and now newly joined hot stewart.cross guy pointed out taht boarding pass was for tomorrow.realized mistake..shot up and grabbed handbag-wanted to jump of the flights but window to small.managed to mumble a im sorry.had to go against ppl trying to board a plane.got sympathetic glances from other passanger like self is really stupid foreigner who cant understand simple english instructions.maybe is true.hot stewart tried to help-screamed loudly wrong flight like three times to make way for self but than backfired and made self target of more stares and looks.managed to get off teh flight without looking like a total bafoon but has learnt to bloody well check date of flight and not just board any plane.plan to be poised and stoic again failed but good side,managed to get on right plane next day but paranoid so did not put on seat belt till they said all doors were closed.just in case same case scenario happens again thot would just jump off and start running for exit.but glad that self gone through that.so if happens again,then could just say,oops i did it again.maybe could wear red catsuit like b.spears while still hot and not post natal slut period-

i haTE it!!!!

i dont like to complain(det is such a lie tho..i'm an excellent whiner in a life outside dis blogpost) but dis is getting out of hand! I officially will try in any way possible to avoid my surau uni during peak hours(kononnye ambigous la ni x ltak name suraU).My azam baru adelah krane beberape sbab

1.bnyk sgt orng duk melepak
2bnyk sgt orng duk melepak
3bnykkkkkkkkkkkkkk sgt orang duk melepak

Do you see how much I hate these ppl loitering in de surau..PPl,like this is no gossiping..this is an advice.it might be harsh but this is a from a sincerely bitter annoyed surau user.

I know to some,our respective halls of residence are quite far away but the surau is not the only option utk buat whatever u want.Examples are makan,berborak,study,makan dan berborak lg.
As i think everyone's aware of(like if ur not!find an optimetrist like noW!),de surau is quite small in size.It only barely fits like 10 ppl comfortably utk sembahyang.Therefore pliz keep de surau for religious purposes.Yes2,i am well aware of de fact that spatutnye masjid/surau tu blh dijadikan tmpt utk perniagaan dan perbincangan and stuff but Come on!! that i think is referring to like a huge masjid where there is like plenty of stuff for the mentioned activities.BUt do not lepak in the surau at one in the afternoon(peaktime) with another 8 friends eating and laughing and talking(loudly may i add) and eating again.It really does disrupt people and above all very annoying.To those yg menjdkan surau sbg spot utk study(i applaud u for being so serious and focused on your study) but guess what?all of those using the surau(well,majority) are students.we do have to actually study and we do have tests and assignments(reallY)!!yet we manage to find study spaces that is nOt de surau.believe it or not,there is this place called the library and there's actual chairs and tables for u to study in.and the best part is that u wont be able to annoy me thre.try iT!

For those yg ingat surau perfect location utk landing tido..erm,its not.we do not wanna come into the surau and witness how drool is made.Let's keep taht for bio class.On a serious note,Please try and be a bit empathatic to others punye need.I mean if sorang okey lagi but if a herd dtg tido kat surau!!!!I might just step on you.GOD HELP ME!!!

And another annnnnnnnnnnnnoying habit of those using the surau is makan kat surau.che kak.surau tu is not a suitable place for food.In case u dont know,we're there to pray!and it really menggangu konsentrasi when trying to pray .Suddenly, in ur first rakaat u get a whiff of de sushi de person beside you is eating.Automatically you start thinking.eih,sodapnyo!Tang mane plak minah ni dpt sushi-like what kind of sushi-ade wasabi x?oooooooooo sdapnye.and u end up sniffing the air eagerly for any trace of wasabi (dis is a true storY).THis is highly annoying.Again,i plead!sisters,do have a bit of compassion for others.I would not halang kalau de surau isnt overcrowded and there is space for these kind of actitivities but there just isnt.Is it not enuf that we;re already bumping around and lining up to be abl to pray(not that i'm complaining) but pliz,dont take away the prayers time as a way to take a break from the world because with these ppl around,u're brought to a realization of how much you hate the world.

FOr those yg dtg melepak jer and wait for classes,terima kasih sgt2 kerana contributing to the kesempitan and uncomfortableness arising due to congestion.YOu are just the best!!!

I have to honestly and sincerely apologize for whatever remarks that might have hurt or sting but these things need to be said And yes i dont have to be so harsh but I am annoyed beyond any level of trying to keep it nice.Let's just keep the surau for religious affairs.For now.

Sincerely

Annoyed and Angry Farah Hani

nude mucH!

it has been forever since I even remembered that I had a bLOg..HoHo..i was just too caught up in all de rain and gloom that is New Zealand.I gave the weather away havent I?yes,its been wet and rainy and squelchy and well more rain these past few days and I'm still not sure whether I like it or whether I hate it.so I'll say I'm in between.Okey,my real reason is not around weather.thats just like apppetizers..tonight was my first ever full frontal nudity experience.yes,i repeat myself.full frontal nudity(that;s y Im so xcited to actually write a bloG)..hehe.went to a comedy show that was supposedly featuring 4 of Nz's best comedian.Alas,if they were the best.Nz has a really very slight problem.FIND NEW COMEDIANS!okey...that was harsh but I paid 22 dollars for a night of fun...but it was a one hour show(like yeah!)and only like one third of the scenes were funnY.yes,ppl might say.u;re asian.u dont get our jokes..er,reality check.it was no where near funny and regardless of geography location,i know funnY!!the topic was all about John key and john key and the weather(how exciting eH?)
.exampLE:


Girl:JOhn keY.JOhn key.John keY(giggles for half a minute).Do you know that your name sounds like a donkeY?

yes ladies and gentleman..they actually thought it was funny.I just think its a sad waste of talent since all of em were really quite good.

And coming back to nudity yes!A scene where a guy is nude while reviewing a book and suddenly stands up and shows his genetalia to like everyone is nOT funny!!gross maybe,degrading('it' wasnt even impressive-) and a bit tad lame...but...wait..hold oN....they were giving himstanding oVations..like ppL stood up and actually clapped for hIM>...yeah they did...what part of a man showing his penis is funnY?yeah2 dets right...no part.keep ur grapes to urself..

well,it wasnt really a surprise since half of em I suspect were already pissed.One girl(who really was very annoying) laughed at every single joke.slash that.every single word that came out of the performer's mouth....like full blown laughter..shaking heads.short breath.all that through out the whole show..I thot she wud sufficate but no such luck..she continued to laugh on till the end of the shoW.and if ur reading this...yes,im so talking about U!!!!green dress.not so very flattering shoe...wine glass at hand..yeah u!!!.and that was my friday night...Me and dzaf and lala have been going to these performances for a while..we thot that we mite absorb whatever we get..I mean the westerners are supposedly sophisticated and cultured are they not?So i find myself surprised at the desperado act to entertain the audience.whats wrong with a bit of stand uP comedY?Im sure there wud b no nudity in there! BUt kudos to they guy that I believe will contribute the creation of horrible nightmares I'm sure I'd b getting...

On a more serious note,I felt horible when they started mocking christianity and I;m not even a follower.How can You mock ur own beliefs?WIthout beliefs,what r we?Who r wE?
Westerners have been going on about Y do we need to abide to no alcohol,no premarital sex and all the rules of Islam and I say to them,We're not complaining so why r u?Just because you dont believe,it doesnt mean the others who do r wrong.We might just be right.Sometimes you cant just depend on logic,you just believe(INSYAAALLAH)..so I guess dis is de end of my ramble-athoN..till then...for hopes of a better comedy SHow in Nz..=)

Crap crappity craP.i hate being an adult.Apparently adulthood is all about responsibilty and like serious stuff which did i mention i hate?I was in educ 115 tutorial when my tutor said things that freaked me out.like literally.we were talking about how children were affected by the parents upbringing.The tutor mentioned that it would be a good idea to have a discussion with ur partner about how they want to bring up a child instead of talk about how many child you would want and all the usual cliches partners bring up.I dont know why but this statement just totally blew a hole in my head.Am I really adult enough to talk about child upbringing?I'm a child myself.I'm high maintanence.I cry when not fed and I burp after drinking milk.So yeah,just freaked and realized am an adult that could have actual human being depend on me.ARGHHHHHHHH!!!!!!did i mention shitty shitty shit shit?

p/s:pardon my abusive use of language.Am freaked out that I'm not a drama queen teen anymore!

pussy ahoy!!

Heard the new remixed version of Jai Ho in a shopping mall.And lets just say its grotesque!!Sukhwinder Singh is like the best singer.JUst pissed off taht they changed a song that was unique in so many ways to another pussy cat dolls trashy hiTs...HOH!!

And we had to cook at Moon's kitchen today cos there was like a million ppl on my floor using the kitchen.We need like timetables for who gets to cook and when coz tis situation of everyone being in the kitchen at the same time does not help my already awful day!!!Owh did i mention my day was horrendous.Am of to take a looooooooooooong nap so det I'll hopefully forget the fact that they altered one of my favourite songs and that this day was awfuL...huh!!!!!

p/s:not much of a whiner usually but really Am having a bad day.And home sickness is kicking in.daYM it!!!

kiwi mucH!!

Well,Ive been here in Kiwi Land for almost a week and I just finished unpacking my bag.Wanna know why?Cos all dis while,I didnt think I could fit in.Not to say that Auckland isnt amazing,trust me it is more than anything I could have imagined.I imagined myself having an awful time here but all the while I have actually been here they were quite fun.Like fuN!!the people are really friendly(they dont really glare at you quite so much here)-they dont push and the weather is absolutely nice-its cool and not too cold(though i do need more layer of clothing in my own opinioN).Yeah,back to the topic,I didnt think I could fit in.The people didnt seem to understand me,I'm short and to top it all off I was petrified at the thought of being new again.Having to learn the ways of things are not my biggest attributes.I suck at it.All this mingling and learning poeple's name and stuff.Yeah suck at it big times.But me and Lala went to this thing tonight that made me realize.Every one in Auckland(the new students aneway) are doing the exact same thing as me.Having to get to know people,having to get reintroduced,having to worry about whetehr theyre fun eunf or cool enuf or whatsoever.I mean I didnt think I was understandable but there were worse.So for now,I take a huge deep breathe and say I am going to move on.My resolution for today,Make everyday count.Ive struggled and studied like crazy and climbed down a really tall wall for this so I'm making it worthwhile.So to Lala,thank you for making me realize this and to more years of understanding and new beginnings.

p/S:me and Lala won second place at quiz night.So yes,am parading it around the net.Lol.