bloggy land

seriously.i like this blog.i like writing and i have loved writing and expressing feeling since i was a like a fetus or something.therefore it really is very sad that the only form of emotional chanel that i can put to use is this blog yet i fail to use it fullY.therefore new year resolution to write more in the blog.


happY new year to y'all btw.my year has been kick ass.not.its normal as usual.on good side,my cooking skills are more sharpened thanks to maid duty i do twice a day.however its still never going to be served for those without matching gens.gross thing happened todaY.nearly swallowed a fly that was in somebody's left milo.hell,it was kind of my fault but god was that horrible.i was like so close to chewing it and just letting it pass my trakea-god,even after all the brushing and the mouth rinse i use,and all the unsuccesful gag tries-i feel the fly still left like some gross dirty bacteria in my mouth that can only be cleaned if bleach is used.

however,it may come as a surprise to many ppl(or it mite not) that i have tried far worse and grosser food staples in my life.lets review my top two grossest food ive eaten

1.chicken head.yep.i did.one time,enjoying indonesian rendang and cudnt see which part of the chicken the meat came from since theyre basically covered in gravy so just went on to eat and eat the food till i felt something pop in my mouth and everything became a bit gelled.immediately spitted it out(who cares about manners then when u felt goo in ur mouth) and saw that it was an eye ball.a black eyeball which was now inflated with its liquid mixed with rice and gravy that i have chewed on.yeah.it put me of chicken rendang for like atleast a year.

2.goat's testicles(balls)
this one is courtesy of my moM.apparently some folk lore said that to stop siblings from fighting(and owh,me n my sibs fought a lot-punches fly every 5 second),give them a serving of testicle and she tried it.the worst part was that she had to trick us into eating it.i mean no daughter or son in their right mind would volunterily eat that with consent.she cut the tescticles to look like squid pieces and told us all that it was some fancy deep sea squids that she bought especially for us.and we all,being squabblers of course fought over who got to eat more.now only do i understand the smirk my moM and dad had while watching us eat those boy goat parts.it didnt really make us love each other instantly,but it does scare us into being nicer to each other when in front of my mom since you never know when she decides that its time to try the recipe again and slip into our food with another delicacy claiM^^^

yeah.thats it it.im queen gross
maybe i'll try a grasshopper next time which my dad swears is delicious and is as good as chicken meat which i very much doubt

till next time
on the next mission to accidentally eat more vile food

spring oH spring

Finally finished with all the assIgnments and all the test before the final doom exam daY!!!but i have atleast 2 weeks to think about that so lets tOHoK (throw) it jauh2 for now..a bit jittery cos i seriously think i now have a wicked bout of insomnia or I'd like it xleh tido nyaYa..huhu..yes,I cannot for the life of me sleep.dh brape lame i've passed of meagre closed eye time for sleep .hopefully with everything behind me>i can focus on getting some beauty sleep cos im lOOking like a witch with like Boring black drab clothes for most time.lets recap whats new this past few non blog writing moments eYH...well,balek malaysia time is coming to a near so im all excited.i really am a boring person.nothing ever happens to me...owh wait something did

yesterday,had this crazy cravings for jewel of india's butter chicken.for those who dont know.its our campus solution to kedai mamak tho its expensive as hell and I dont thnk the ppl there wud tolerate being called anei,LOL..aneways,i bought mua looovely butter chicken and was all xcited about it.even had the guts to mintak kuah lbih tu de server girl...owh thou beauty.May I have a little more porton of thoU delicious heaven made gravy and she did..ay maiden-i give You some..so jumping with joy i I did and headed towards this brick building i call home..i cud just imagine -food-youtube-aNtm-perfect match..i reached de gf and what did i see-the neighbour i have had for the past year who i really have nothing to say too so wanted to just rush into the lift without having to make like really awkward small talk and i did.but the lift was going to close.my cognitive thinking which is in Par with like the dumbest blonde in the world shouted silently in my head "tahan tahan lift" so i dgn pandai nye menghulur my beautiful butter chicken and the lift -the lift-the lift-crushed it.like penyet sebelah.and my hand was like inches away from the lift.my beautiful2 gravy was like mengalir turun and a few ktol nasi fell on the floor.yes-the unbearable humiliation I had to endure.hani swore to me that one guy actually terlopong tgK..after somebody was kind enuf to react tO the event-since i was not functioning at any point in that situation.got into the lift and quickly ran into my shame shelter.

I just have this thing with me.I'm clumsy.and i know that ppl think i'm just like self fulfilling my prophecy and i really aM not clumsy but just be around me for a few weeks ,be around me for 24 hours and u will know that i put the clum in clumsy...whatever that is..hauahahahhaha...

okeyh,will try to get a third attempt at sleep.wish me luck eyh...really really need it or mite just start breaking down crying for no reason.god,sleep is so important.

owh,and de start of de summer is so annoying..i being de very suke glap person hates the fact that there's like a lot more sunlight now.its like trang benderang at 6 and i despise light when I need sleep...hUHUHU

cranky clumsy

Fafa Hani

kemalasan melampaU^^

i know that this topic is something that is such a cliche of a topic when it comes to studenst that as soon as anyone sees this topic,they'll say-whether outloud or in their head-elO,hang ingat hang sorang ke malas.aku pon malas tp xde la writing pasal it-hehe.well,i'm sorry but writing about it makes me feel guilty as to why im so freaking lazy and remind myself that i need to start kicking my own lazy butt and start working on the educ 113 assignmenta nd langteach101 essay but i have verY good reason for not working on it and putting all my frenzied caught up feeling in this blOg instead.I am stuck^^ as in in deep s**t and God only knows how I'm ever gonna finish these assignments.doubting my potential or even future abilities as a teacher if i cant even make out what langteach is all about.i mean its 101 for goodness sake.can it get any more basic.maybe i'll b one of those dysfunctional teachers yg cam teach from the text book.like literally teach from the text book.

situation in class

teacher fafa masuk class
"good morning ms farah"
duduk duduk-erm jap,ape ek dlm bahase inggeris-ha sit on your chair sit sit
thank you teacher
thank you too murid2
okey today we do some grame la ek.take text book and open page 3..yes yes
okey so can everybody do de whole page.when nk abes time u mark ur partners work
if any problem you ask your frens ek.i am teaching u self autonomy-penting budak2 blajar sendiri.arite-okey..very good

then moves to teacher table
start taking out leaflets and ads
"eih,before u stat ur work ek.ade x anyone nk give anything to mummy diorng mader's day ni.come come.i got new catalogue.tupperware,avon.but no hutang2 ek.cash only"

Huhuhu...very scary thought.oooo..oooo..makes me wanna go study .see,told you it helps to talk about u being malas..
LOl
till then

ms lazy pants faFa

Three days till raye and the raye frenzy is kicking in full gear.the frenzy here does not and will never refer to the excitement of nk beraye kat perantauan but the utter despair and gut wrenching sickness in the pit of my stomach That i have everytime anything reminds me that i will not be with my family raye ni-skyped ngan umi xdi and bertambah lah lg ke frenzian kpale ku.saw umi and nad's batch of kueh raye-looked pretty good but made umi janji yg die xkan buat kueh arab until I balek-so basically it'll be kueh arab utk raye haJI..lOL..a hillarious rmedy to my yearning for home is kisah nad and her so called biskut raye aspirations-

for those who do not know who nad is -she is my annoying yet tolerable sister-nadiah hani bnt hussein-used to call her nerd tp she was annoyed so I changed It to nad tho i cud have come with a btter nickname-nadiyot,yot ke.lol.aneways

tahun ni sempena ketiadaan I kat umah tu and no one to boss her around she got the idea that it wud be fantastic to buat kueh raye sorang2-me n my mom can never trust her cookIng ways so she decided to buat chocalate chip cookies without my mom's hawk eyes.my mom bangun dr a nap and saw her working on the cookie dough gune resipi kawn bek die-sO she did-and everyone else was like wow-nad-ur actually not hopeless.or so they thought(my famly is so easy to believe in change especially when it comes to nadiah changing, I for one am not>>lol)

aneways,bile balek trawekh,my sibs and parents pon dgn excited nye mengtry all de cookies dey made tengah haritu and when it came to nad's biscuit,bee was really tamak and took two.stuffed it in his mouth and spat it back"erm,kueh masen ke nI?"angah who didnt believe bee took a bite and spat it with more rigour and so did mY parents-lol,de red faced nad said"achik ltak 3 table spooon salt jer" and they started laughing at her-lol...dear gullible sister-u dont put three spoon of salt in a cookie batch-i guess she must have messed it uP with three pinch or sumthing>so now we have three balang of choc chip cookies that no one will touch-well done nad-wish I was there tho-its not quite sO fun laughing at her thru skYpe.loL.

its all for now i guess,kna g siap nk bukak pose kat suriani since we ran out of ayam and beras-two main things for any malaysian meaL..hehe..till then.
and before i forget >>slamat ari raye maaaf zahir batIN to anyone and everyone reading

toodles

ms evILLL
farah fafa hanI

7 hari sebelum raye..

what do ppl call the 7 days before raye?the hari likur likat or somethinG?for my sake lets call it the closing days of ramadhan>>>ramadhan this year has undeniably been beautifuL>>i mean de bond between every one in Auckland(HUia especiallY) is really evident and sometimes I really do bliV that ramadhan brings out the best in everyone-everyone-everyone.

Raya feelings shud b here by now but feeling totally subdued-maybe its de lack of raya preperations here.de mid sem holiday is coming to an end and am really proud to say that I did nothing exciting or near exciting whatsoever in the past two weeks.all i did was dream and dream and dream .skali skale adela nigtmare-huahahhaa...

Today bukak pose yg agak best and I think we have outdone ourself.like literally-its so menghairankan knape kalau x bulan pose,we make do with really lazy cooking but bile bulan pose ni,we cook like its the end of the world,or de end of food as we know it tomorrow.kalau mkn utk 4 orang,masak utk like 20 ppL-dets what u call tamak haloba(I think thats what u call it kan?)>>aneways,menu today was sup tUlang(panas and pedas-a very good combination),stir fried veges and telUr dadar.for those yg ckp,hekler,lauk tu jer nk kecoh-lauk aku time malas gle rtuh-well ,To u I say it is a kejayaan for us so shut up and let me do my victory dance aneways

and we berempat(me,farah,mun and hanI) buat butter cake_ and the best part is,it was actually pretty good.de kueh's we've tried to do like butir nangka and bubur cha cha though not to say they were disasterous could just be classified as okeyla,boleh makan.but dis cake was beautiful.wanted to weep and cry and hug dis butter baby we made-terharu sgt.hahaha...

owh,7 days lg nk raye-now plizzzzzzzzzzz,tell me what to do utk rase cam even a bit pon xcited nk raye cos im desperate here-just dont suggest lagu raye cos all it does is make me cry and crave for home all the more-huaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa

and an early eid mubarak shoutout

slamat ari raye aidilfitir-maaf zahir dan batiN-

farah hani

perantaun ladki=)

pose nk dtg>>

Well,ramadhan is only a few days away and I really have not made up my mind as to whether this is interesting or really the worst thing that has ever happened-All my life,dr kcik I wanted to b one of those ppl yg belajar kt luar negara and I m one of em so I shud have been jumping of joy when realized that when I wanted to experience other countries,I shud b aware that I wud also b enjoying the Ramadhan-Nz experience and also the Eidul Fitri-Nz experience and trust me I was not.Or if I were,i was really trying to put it at the back of My head coz de holy months without ur beloved ones r just not that special but YA ALLAH,just make me strong enuf to not break down everyday>>hehe..aneways,to all..i just wanted to wish you guys a Happy Eid Mubarak.Its definately interesting..

Speaking of interesting,just read the news and was really shocked when I read the news that Srk was detained by the immigration at an American airport just because he has the name Khan which is black listed or suMthing.really feel hatred for America now.I mean this is Shahrukh Khan for goodness sake-he is obviously no terrorist bomber or if he was,he is really gud at hiding his actual hardcore love for mati shahid since he's like a liberal Islam(sgt bahaye but that makes him like not even a threat)-kalau Srk who is like a freaking big star gets held up at the airport and had to go thru really rigorous questioning than imagine how its like for normal ppl who just incidentally have surnames like Hussein and etc.Come on ppl.Just cos a few ppL think its fun to blow themself up,it aint transalating to everyone doing it.I mean,Americans have a really high rate for divorce but I dont see them not allowing anyone to get married since they'll just get divorced aneways.U get what i mean?IT;s a cross cultural world and generalization has got to stop.Try to understand them individually and not label ppl..I guess that's good advice for me as well.

That's liek all I have to say

Later
Pissed King Khan Fan

H1N1

Been reading the Malaysian papers lately and the H1N1 case is rampage.I mean 56 people is a lot.I mean even one is a lot.I'm just praying my hardest to god that people I love is safe and sound.What makes this suckier is the fact that I'm thousands of miles away from my loved ones.It's funny that when the influenza was widespread here,I didnt worry about it-no sweat-sure,I knew about it but big deal?but when its near ur luved ones,its like ur heart start to beat faster and u start to feel seram sejuk about the fact that ur like so far far away from em.

Moving on to sumthing a little light hearted,I have managed to masak my first ever batch of cekodok ikan bilis.Sure,its not the best and sure one quarter of it was a bit overdone but atleast it was own effort.THough thinking about it feels really lame since am a twenty one year old woman(yeke?) and still have not grasped basic food preparation.all de Est classes to waste..hihihihi..

Talking about families and food have managed to bring me to a new level of depression.tahap dewa nye.homesickness is kicking in full force.my mind is nowhere here.its somewhere floating around.maybe it;ll come back once I;m on de plane to Malaysia.Am just trying to take it slow for now.Trying hard to enjoy things in life but really not being able to.Anyone know any cure or remedies for a serious bout of homesickness.

I so miss home that I was weeping like crazy when I heard lagu2 raye(yes2 i am lame since ive downloaded them already for raye yg berzaman lg) yg talking about sedare cos basically no sedare here.But on good side,have managed to label everyone in my class with sedare status. I think hani is like my aunt and bee is liek my sister-many positions are still available.U just need to fill in forms like y u think I'd make a rocking sedare-Hint^anything to do with me being compatible with any bollywood star is like so totally digalakkan-

P/s:i am so hormonally and emotionally unstable that when I watched Marley and Me yesterday,i sobbed and cried and blubbed in to the tissue when Marley died and didnt stop crying for like 30 minutes.for dos who didnt watch it,its a movie about a dog-yep,dog and I cried a river-I'm that pathetic.Owh,just read own word,seem to be doing a lot of crying-Miss Fafa cry alot-nice ring to it huh?

Fafa Hani

Queen Teary Baby