Life!!

I know life is unfair but I've never been slapped with the reality of life quite like this before..I was browsing trough the e-mail sent by our new zealand agent for application n stuff and I noticed there was a few e-mail addresses i have no idea of..My heart just stopped and I realized that it's reaLLy true .there is 5 other girls who r joining us ..5 strangers we dont know of.and a sledgehammer of thought hit me ..how unfair is life..these new ppl were younger than us and ironically has no background at all in The wide plane of English..one of them ws a business major for goodness sake..some of them were in labs with goggles on,mixing chemistries and blowing up stuff while the 20 of us slaved and laboured,pondering on Keats and dat damn bard,Shakespeare..I know its really not theyre fault as to them not slaving away with the rest of us..ladY luck smiled on them..who can hate them for it...but how unfair is life??

We 20 people were different in so many ways..some were just plain rowdY(me!me),some were well naivettes learning the ropes of life,some determined to make it into this so called easy program .In the two years we were together,we were literally brothers and sister..Like normal siblings,feuds r common bt we were also bonded in such a strong tie of poems and love,fiercely loyal to each Teslian. We shared secrets,late night meals(ok..meal..nasi lemak is not a snack is it),thought on thet freaky Woolf person,jokes and banters,also tears and frustratioNs.So yes,life is unfair.They seperate our physical form but they can never scar our memories..

Really,this is not my way of tarnishing the newcomers but really an input as to what I felt deeply 4.I'm not a bitter and jealous classmate(maybe just a tiny part of me is..they saved one whole year!i feel old!)but a sorrowed friend who doesnt want to say goodbye to a good time and to good friends..

To my Tesl Dolls,I love you aLL...

greek!!

I just wrote a really long description of my favourite tV shows detailing on how much i lovvvveee and live for crappy american tv shows that keep showing teen angst with of course gorgeous ppl portraying it and i thot I might actually be a succesful tv critic or sumthing-i mean my articles on tv guide-what a dreaM!!unfortunately-i am alsoo really klutzy-i deleted the wHole entry without even having any idea as to what i accidentally pressed to make it all go away..so now-i decide-karma's against me on the tv show critique gig,i m so set up for bigger thing..so while waiting for the big amazing thing that karma has for me to fall on my lap-i'm gonna go lipat bajU and watch summore of that crappy tv show so that if i decide i want to fall back on the tv gig career i'd have had my research dOne-does anyone understand this entry cos I am right now officially jst pissed at my pc for being too smart and deleting my entry without me telling it to..so till theN>>>>>>>cappI awaits me****go greeK!!!

p/s:the tv shows that u so need to watch if u havent
-greek(like duH!) -veronica mars-90210-privileged-gosip girl-the secret life of the american teenager-pushing daisy-more oprah-these will ensure that u ave enuf candy floss and cheesy feel to ur everyday liFE!!ooo-and new season of next top model-i hate the draG!!

teen sHows

Since i am gloriously uNemployeD and enjoying every minute of it(minus all the groaning about being bored out of my skiN..=) ) ,i spend my time doing what normal teenagers while on vacation do-minus the find part time work- i watch crappY american tV sHows and get so addicted to it,you might just need cranes to move me from my seat since i'm practically glued to my pc screeN.(my poor mother,tried luring me with some mother love-she needs more good stuff.fast food maybE..)..since I'm In the mood to help my fellow peep who wants to actively partakE and join me in my marshmellow land,filled witH amazingly ridiculous amounT of good looking ppL here is a guide to all de cheese flicks yoU want .i guarantee yoU..try the sHows,and u'll b as hooked as a fisH(verY lame metapHore..is iT even a metaphOre?lol)..

1)Gossip Girl
-I seriously doubt that U ppl need introduction to this drama hour..so,lets just skiP to it and state the five reason y this is a MUst
....the designer cLothes..big surprise there(dripping in sarcasm here)...i mean..the clothes they wear might even cost even more than my house!!. it is after all about the upper east side.
...the fact that the cast is just ridiculously beautifuL..i think like all of them r on the list of People's beautiful people list(te magazinE..=)-
....the gossipinG..my favourite thing after the cloThes-and the narrator-kirsten beLL(she is my favourite tv voice)
.....chucK and his wacky sense of fashion..i like green pants and purple jumpers...hoT!!
...chucK!!

2)90210
-it's a remake of beverly hills 90210 thUs the zip code title..ive nerver actually watched the original series but i'm guessing its also about teens..??maybe..aneways,its a pretty good timepass if ur like me and must watch everything tat is even remotely about drama..its about this two kids from wisconsin(i think..or was it texas.?)-well somewhere- trying to fit in the 90210 areA..goodluck with that..
there is loads and loads of backlashing and puppy love -a HOT teacher-(since I'm way to old to be crushing on the kids in this show-so passe) ..vice-the actresses r like stick thin..chips have more fat on em than these kids..it'll make yoU wanna cut down on the food intake..start starving yourself maybe-but if ur dysfunctional lyke me-u'd wander to ur kitchen ,gobble on some edibles and wonder if u cud grab the food on ur screen-well theyre not eating it..might just as well eat tem ..u'd be doing them a favour..they'll stay skeletal and u'll b happy and fed..=)

3)veronica mArs
-I without a doubt adore veronica to deatH-not literally tho-this is actually a pretty different genre than the others.less marshmellow more dark choc..dunt get me wrong,the drama is still there and you bectha ,a bundle of em ..the lead,veronica mars is a hell of a roll model..sHe's funnY, drippiNg with sarcasm(the best quality in a girl-i want i want)..a brilliant p.I(i wIsh i ws her) and every bad boy-but good inside-wants her secretly.she can solve a mystery at the drop of a pin..and she has a taser which she puts to very good use...i also want the bad boysecretly good boy lure ,and the deep sarcasm...how does farah snickers,private investigator sound?(do you get my pun to her chocolate bar name...plz say u do cos if not,id just b very lamE)...


4)Greek
-This is te last sHow on my list..do I hear a mental hooray?...well,this show is more my age since teyre no more in high school ..revolving around two siblings enrolled at cyprus rhode university..both are in the greek system-mening frats and sororities.-and we the audience get to see the two battle love triangles,go through hazes,party with em and most importantly feel like ur such a loser for being a university student without experiencing wat theyre havIng..yeah,as depressing as this show is,,it is seriously funny-if it doesnt at all tickle ur funnY bone-i'll persOnally come and tickle u myself,or slap u on te head and question ur ability to pick up funny stuff-ur funny mentality depends on this show..my favourite fraT-undeniably cappa taU-teyre rowdy and they ave a hell of a timE...and cappY is so daym adorable...

holler to Ya!!wanted to drop in cos i sooooooo wanna hear what ppl tink of this nickname for bazar ramadhaN..last week,went to pasar mlm witH me bestie,zFa and he ws like..nobody calls bazar ramadhan bazar anymore..ek,i didnt get the memo..so wats the new name?baraM...well,being me..i buRst out loughing..rolling my eyes..saking my head funny.bt wait..is it really funnY or am i just being weird..tell me whatcha thiNK..pretty plizz..

p/s.i think it'll b more sUitable for lyke a kueh...badak berendam mayB..loL

my favourite moNTh..

my faVourite MOnth is witout a doubt ramadhaN..i love the ambiance of this moNth...it just feels special through ouT..n there is tat special bond you sHare wit your familY while you wrestle for tHe last piece of fried chicken or a strand of fried mee wHile bukak pose-not that i've ever had to wrestle my brothers(i think-bt i'll definatelY win)..and after the break fast.the terawikh session..its like good exericse.i mean..yoga??plizzzzzzzzzzzz......terawikh is so the new pilates.also we tend to b a biT more friendlY during this month..maybe its all that feel good food in the tummY-and a little sleepy..i mean,as a subang person,we're not big on hostality or friendliness either(as faR as i can see) but this month we definately bring the best out of all us..ppL tend to be politer(thouGH there is also a loooooooooot of gas involved alsO-that i'm not quite a fan of)..and dont you think that the night just comes alive ???if I was to venture out at night around subang,i'd definately want like a bat right beside my driver's seat.just in case-but during this month..you can see ppl heading to the mosque..kids running around playing firecrackers(I know its illegal and all bt hell it makes em happY) and suddenly the night doesnt seem so scarY.the boogeyman miGht not show after all...its to me just one big happY month.i love love love it...some people think that ramadhan is just a transition to raya which is kind of technically truE but without a doubT its a beautiful month all by itself.so lets not get to cought uP wit eid mubarak(it'll come around eventuaLLy) and enjOY the best montH of the year to the fullest..
so to alL the ppL i know-enjoy this blessed month and all it has to offeR-

HappY ramadHan.x0x0

mY new dAy resOLution

I ave finally finished my damn application for accomodation.Who knew it was so touGH..communaL kitcheN ?not to commune kicthen?well..glad thats well past over me.moVing on..new day resOlutioN..I need to write more ..like every day..well,updates on what ive been hollering for this past few dayS..nutHIn much..bt i did just find ouT that i ave an immense passion for shoes.not just any sHoes,high pointy sHoes..heels.wedges,kittens,pumps.U give me uncanny magical heights and 4 that i lovvvvvvvve yoUuuuuuuuuuuuu.my daD said to own up to well my stumped growtH but daddy dearest,whats the poinT of technologY if i dont maKe good use of it..=) so here is a toast to those magical height defying shOEs..thank you for working hard in making me look taller..I love yoU..

p/s;like seriously,flats r just so well obvioously flat.loL..next post,an ode to HeeLs..=)

jane austen corrupts you!!

Yes.holler to this situation people.I totally stand by my opinion that Jane never gotten married Austen is one of those people that corrupts us with these ideally perfected image of romance.I was reading two of her novels back to back and I confess I got bitten by the Austen bug.She gives hope to those wHo r not so perfect that they have a chance in love,u're not perfect but by god u'll get mr perfect.thats what her slogan should scream in every book..Look at Anne,as boring as tv1 yet she cought Fredrick wentwortH after sHe dumped him.the poor guy loved her crazY!.at first glance,Austen was empowering(the fact that she's british and excel in dark humour to perfection doesnt hurT) she was cynical and you know how i think cynicality is like the very fundamental issue needed in important work of literature otherwise it'll just be as dry as really Bad wine(or really good wine.do i look like i drinK?its just an impresiion.like duH).Due to her cynical style,I gave her the benefit of te doubt,she might not just be an old maid with notHing to do,she actually has ideas and i read Emma as my next mission. And I still liked her.Parallel to Anne Wentworth,she caught good fish.O honourable Mr Knightley! This one I had to question?Emma to me through out the whole novel was a pain in the ass.shE was highly snobbish,very poky when not needed and utterly wrong about love matches(though she pretends so) yet again she managed to catch a hunkie dorY(well he looked hot in the moVIE!!)..n I was hooked to Austen.SHe made heroines unperfect and she gave them theyre perfect pairing!!I ws a positive thinker at that timE(forgive my naivety!).
Than i read more and more,Northanger abby and finally Pride and Prejudice.After reading,I pondered deep and long!!good for them ..they all got happy endings with their perfect catch and fairy tale like sTory to tell to their grandchildren.So in the end what do you realize? good people(who have flaws bt decent enough) get good partners than it hits me hard!!buLL!! no they dont...I know several beautiful,strong smart women in my life and they dont have that..not even anywhere close to perfection.I wonder whether Austen is really empowering or is she just really filling up our girlie heads with dreams that will never come true.People say that her novels r the blank starting points for feminist movements but wHat does it really represent?example,Emma said from start that she doesnt think marriage was necessary for her part yet ironically she did in the end.So is it really feminism she;s trying to pass along or is it that we women were,are and always will be stuck in this silly knight in shining armour fantasy no matter what centurY we r iN!
Think about it,she herself didnt get married.How on earth does she qualify to tell tales and stories about women wHo are so called forever blissed..thats not empowering thats outrighteously wrong!!I Take a stand that Austen will no more b what I'm reading.She was the mother of chic lits.Without her,no other would be compelled to write story about women who r so called confident yet ironically weak at sights of hot captain(not that i mind if i was Anne.HE did lift her into the buggY!WEntworth is definately an exception.lol).Sorry Ms Austen,I'm hanging up your books..No more daydreams for me.Time to live in reality where even the worst of heart gets a decent guy while we wait around fantasazing(pathethic really counting the numbers of gays in tis world,there's not really enuf guys to go around..!!) about my knight slaying a dragons for my honour( they cud just save a bunny.i reallY am not that pickY).I'm sticking with books that make me depressed!!better expecting the worst than having your head up there in the clouds!

p/s;this is just my midnight ramble.I have like a million approach to how i see Austen.This is how i see her when I'm in the mood to talk feminisT!!yeah..im one sad weeeeeee crazy gaL